Prayers

[bloomingblossom]

I keep praying though I don't know what I should believe. It's always ending up like this. My enthusiasm can't last long enough for me to achieve anything and then comes my lassitude. It's said that Gemini will obtain all she wants at one time and will also lose all at one time. This is crazily right in my case. Sometimes I wonder why it has to be so exact for me? My sis is also a Gemini but nothing seems to be so exact for her. I hate to think that my fate has already been decided. I FUCKING HATE THIS =(( =((
I'm feeling terrible recently. I'm sick of my trouble and just wanna break away so bad :( I feel bad, too bad :(
I am totally lost in my way. Why does it has to be like this? All troubles come at one time...