concerto
tonight was the concerto competition..
I try to tell myself not to expect too much of myself. I'm trying to get back into the whole school routine after terrace.. cuz being with her completely screwed up my school work.. since I was doing her work most of the time. plus last semester my back thing happened.. and I'm still struggling with that.. so I'm trying not to push myself too hard and just have a couple performances.. just for experience.
I tell myself this every time I perform.. but then they start reading the results and I start getting my hopes up. I know there's no way I'm going to win because I haven't worked that hard plus I'm going up against the best people in the studio.. and I tell myself this.. but I still get my hopes up.. and set myself up for disappointment. it sucks.
I need to stop.
I try to tell myself not to expect too much of myself. I'm trying to get back into the whole school routine after terrace.. cuz being with her completely screwed up my school work.. since I was doing her work most of the time. plus last semester my back thing happened.. and I'm still struggling with that.. so I'm trying not to push myself too hard and just have a couple performances.. just for experience.
I tell myself this every time I perform.. but then they start reading the results and I start getting my hopes up. I know there's no way I'm going to win because I haven't worked that hard plus I'm going up against the best people in the studio.. and I tell myself this.. but I still get my hopes up.. and set myself up for disappointment. it sucks.
I need to stop.