I'm bored
so here's an update, I may post me and stephs lovely convo, if shes ok with it, so look for that later.
now more about steph, cause so many of you ask me...
steph, I met her like 2, possibly 3 months ago? at the seed of chucky with her, Mary, and Kristen. as soon as I saw her, my jaw instantly hit the floor, like holy shit, this girl has to be the mnost beautiful person I've ever had the pleasure to see in ym life, like my eyes couldn't believe what i was seeing, it was like just too much, so for the next lets see...um well since then I've been drooling over her, she had a boyfriend so I kept just this like woahhhh shes hott I'd give anything to get to know her, so just recently she IMed me and her and her boyfriend broke up, which most people would be like go for it, go for it, buttt just because shes her! liek a goddess! and I'm me, this sad little emo boy, I mean It may seem as if I'm like desperatly trying to get her, but I mean yeah, I do like her and shit, but I mean I like her to the point, were I don't want my feelings to ruin things, and I mean I'm still getting to know her better, right now,she's looking for a friend I mean I'm going to be here for her as as good of a friend as I can, and if things work out yay! if not, oh well, I'm not getting my hopes up. just telling her exactly what she should hear like 45768945786987459867 times a day. So I mean I'm just like a quiet admirer, so yeah, thats about all you need to know, besides the fact thats shes one of the most amazing people I've ever met in ym entire life!!!!!!!
ok without further ado....here is the convo we had, its long, I apologize for that!
XheartnotwantedX: good morning dahling
BloodyGovern: hello!
XheartnotwantedX: hi
BloodyGovern: hows your snowday
XheartnotwantedX: cold!!!!!! and blah, and how is yours?
BloodyGovern: haha well goos
BloodyGovern: good**
XheartnotwantedX: thats good, I made your cd
BloodyGovern: haha awesome!
XheartnotwantedX: yup!! andddd got your comment, and it made me smile, a lot
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: good!
XheartnotwantedX: yup, and then I went and posted pictures lol
BloodyGovern: posted pictures?
BloodyGovern: what do you mean?
XheartnotwantedX: I put pictures in my lj, of people and me *even though no one wants to see that lol*
BloodyGovern: haha im gonna see!
XheartnotwantedX: ok, have fun, I have half of Mary in one
BloodyGovern: im not seeing the picutres
BloodyGovern: where are they?
XheartnotwantedX: really, o do you see were it says stop counting the days?
BloodyGovern: ohh
BloodyGovern: haha got it
XheartnotwantedX: click on it, lol ok
BloodyGovern: haha nice pics
BloodyGovern: i see mary!
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: yup, hehe
XheartnotwantedX: I'm taking another of her friday, shes making me
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yupp, hehe I had a dream, and you and mary were in it
BloodyGovern: haha
BloodyGovern: what happened in it
XheartnotwantedX: well we were all hanging out, and Mary was ranting on about scott as she alwats does, and you were sittingf there being beautiful, as always, and I was just like all giggely, and I was obviously like paying attention to you much more than her, cause yeahh... and then she got pissed at me and threw a book at me, and it was weird
BloodyGovern: lmao
BloodyGovern: i feel soo bad about this scott thing
BloodyGovern: she is telling me about it right now
BloodyGovern: its wicked fucked up
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, but the major part was you being beautiful, yeah thats really all she ever talkks to me about
XheartnotwantedX: I feel bad shes this hurt over...him?
BloodyGovern: yea she really needs to get over him and find someone who can treat her right
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, someone whos not a complete morin
XheartnotwantedX: mpron*
BloodyGovern: she shouldnt even care about him anymore because he obvisouly doesnt care much about her if hes breaking promises
XheartnotwantedX: moron* grrr
XheartnotwantedX: exactly
BloodyGovern: yea
BloodyGovern: i just told her that but shes on an away message
BloodyGovern: der i am talking to this 14 yr old me and krisitn met at the mountain
BloodyGovern: he is soo immature
BloodyGovern: hes like bragging about doing drugs and shit
BloodyGovern: i hate people like that
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, oh well one day, she'll find someone who will sweep her off her feet, ewww what a retard
BloodyGovern: yea
BloodyGovern: to both comments
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: you see me, I don't do drugs, I drink occasionaly, but I dont talk about that yeah
BloodyGovern: yea i mean same here
XheartnotwantedX: OWWWWWW
BloodyGovern: well, i mean i do weed sometimes but its not that great
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I used to, but ..just can't handle it anymore
BloodyGovern: me and my friends accidently did weed that was laced with acid or something
BloodyGovern: so im really kinda scared about it now
XheartnotwantedX: damn! I used to do a lot of drugs, but just stoped cause I saw I was hurting ppl I loved, and I realized, i never want ro hurt anyone that i truley care about ever again, awwwww I sowwy *hug*
BloodyGovern: yeaa
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I dunno, I mean when I got high, I was the biggest asshole on earth...
BloodyGovern: haha
BloodyGovern: yea i know some people who are like that
XheartnotwantedX: so I quit
XheartnotwantedX: god, why is it so colddd
BloodyGovern: haha i have no icea
BloodyGovern: idea8*
XheartnotwantedX: lol, well I'm freezing my ass off, maybe I should go start a fire or something, anyhoo...how are you? *thought I'd ask*
BloodyGovern: im bored
BloodyGovern: and i dont wanna work tonite
BloodyGovern: argff
XheartnotwantedX: awww I sowwy
BloodyGovern: soooooooooooooooo
XheartnotwantedX: yes?
XheartnotwantedX: OOO Im sorry I didnt call yesterday, just as I was going to you IMed me
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: haha its alrite
BloodyGovern: i had to leave fast anyways
XheartnotwantedX: ok, I wanted to, I had the butterflie in my stomach, that I get when I called you the first time, ok, yeah
BloodyGovern: haha you had butterflies?
BloodyGovern: thats soo cute
XheartnotwantedX: I had like evil butterflies, like it was crazy, iwas soo nervous
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: dont be nervous around me lol!
XheartnotwantedX: I'll try, but I mean I have the perfect reasons to, i mean your like one of the coolest people EVER!!!!! *in my opinion* your one of the most beautiful creations to ever be put on this world, just I dunno, I mean perfect reasons to eb nervous lol
BloodyGovern: awww
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: lol, my fingers are fucking freezing, its not cool
BloodyGovern: lol wear mittens!
XheartnotwantedX: I don't have any , maybe I'll just go downstairs and start the fire place up
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: and and I like fire, its nice
BloodyGovern: pyro!
XheartnotwantedX: a little, but who isn't in this day and age?
BloodyGovern: lol yea i guess your right
XheartnotwantedX: w00t w00t
XheartnotwantedX: brb
BloodyGovern: ok
BloodyGovern: OMG i fucking love you haha you are soo adorable!
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Auto response from XheartnotwantedX: hehe
if your name starts wityh S and ends with teph
you are beautiful, cool, just all around amazing, you rule
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XheartnotwantedX: awww thank you
XheartnotwantedX: and I mean it
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX:
XheartnotwantedX: hehe I can't wait til the movies
BloodyGovern: i know me too!
BloodyGovern: its gonna be soo much fun
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, first time I get to see you sence, well the last time lol, I hope I'm not such a drooling, giggely idiot this time
BloodyGovern: haha you werent a drooling giggly idiot last time
BloodyGovern: actually we didnt even talk much
BloodyGovern: all i remember was that i dropped my nacho cheese
BloodyGovern: and i was mad!
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: LOL,I remember I when you left with Kristen and me and Mary were In there,I was allgiggely, then youcame back, and i was like quiet
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah.... I remember a few words I used that night, *describing you hehe*
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: haha what were those
XheartnotwantedX: umm well there were, fucking most beautiful person i've ever seen, godess, *drool*, and so on
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX: yup..
XheartnotwantedX: too bad that movie sucked lol
BloodyGovern: what did we see
BloodyGovern: the seed of chuckie?
XheartnotwantedX: seed of chucky
BloodyGovern: haha that wicked sucked
BloodyGovern: i thought the kid was wicked cute though
BloodyGovern: he was like half japan half irish
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: lol, I mean Britteny speaRS AND redman died so I liked it, LOL yeah
BloodyGovern: haha well ya
BloodyGovern: it wasnt scary at all
XheartnotwantedX: and andf I got to meet you, an obvious plus, no not really
XheartnotwantedX: ^not scary
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX:
XheartnotwantedX: hmmm I feel like listening to music now, brb
BloodyGovern: ok
BloodyGovern: hahaha
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Auto response from XheartnotwantedX: wow!
you really are THAT amazing
like woahhhh
you know who you are coughstephcough
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XheartnotwantedX: bwa ha ha
XheartnotwantedX: grrr I need to figure out how to put the flash back on ym camera
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: *christmas present, LOOOOOOOOONG instruction booklet*
BloodyGovern: hahah
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I'm bored, i should like go pole dancing down stairs LMAO jk
BloodyGovern: haha do it!
XheartnotwantedX: ahhh no one wants that...trust me
XheartnotwantedX: ok...it can stop snowing now
BloodyGovern is away at 8:05:52 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:07:00 AM.
XheartnotwantedX: hey
BloodyGovern: hii
XheartnotwantedX: I added a comment about you in my sub profile/ site thingee
XheartnotwantedX: *on the friends page thingee*
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: yup
BloodyGovern: haha thats nic
BloodyGovern: e
BloodyGovern: your soo nice
BloodyGovern: and cute
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: awwww thank you, you make me smile and blush...
BloodyGovern: haha you do the same to me
XheartnotwantedX: *and drool lol*
XheartnotwantedX: yay well I'm just saying what you should be hearing from every guy who even has the honor to look at you
XheartnotwantedX: or know you
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: thats cute
XheartnotwantedX: its true
BloodyGovern: i wish my x bf would think that
XheartnotwantedX: well if he doesn't hes a fucking idiot
XheartnotwantedX: I mean honestly, how could anynot not think at least that of you, you're like so amazing, and it just pisses me off that people could think less of that of you., it should eb illegal!!!!!
BloodyGovern: hahaha
BloodyGovern: oh if only
XheartnotwantedX: grr I say it is! so thats that! it is
XheartnotwantedX: wow whats up with Mary signing on and off?
XheartnotwantedX: and on and off
BloodyGovern: idk
XheartnotwantedX: hmmm peculiar
BloodyGovern: i think her computer is being gay
XheartnotwantedX: oic, that sucks
XheartnotwantedX: ok, now I'm pissed, I feel like breaking something
BloodyGovern: why!?!?
XheartnotwantedX: my ex is being a immature cunt faced cunt monger!!!!
BloodyGovern: well thats how x's are
XheartnotwantedX: yup....well Im friends with 99.9% of my exes, except her
BloodyGovern: ohh
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: grrr, she deserves tro get an std, and dieeee
BloodyGovern: lmao
BloodyGovern: thats a little harsh
BloodyGovern: im glad im not one of your x's lol
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, Im sorry LOL, no no its just her, who goes around spreading rummors and telling people I'm gay, and having all her gay friends hit on me
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: thats mean
BloodyGovern: but kinda funny
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: oh yeah, shes a cunt monger!
XheartnotwantedX: shes put me through a LOT of fucked up shit, I mean she can't just give it a rest
BloodyGovern: im sorry
XheartnotwantedX: its ok...whatever exes....blah
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: damn
BloodyGovern: how long ago was this?
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: Awhile ago
BloodyGovern: oh
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: w/e I blocked her, its all good
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah...anywaysss
BloodyGovern: im mad
XheartnotwantedX: why?
BloodyGovern: i told my x i like him and i was just fooling around but he didnt say it back
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: and it pisses me off
BloodyGovern: what should i say to him?
XheartnotwantedX: awwwww Im sorry, Im sure hes just being an idiot, and he'll say it back sooner or later
XheartnotwantedX: i don't know....
BloodyGovern: lol no he wont
XheartnotwantedX: how could he not, when its you!
BloodyGovern: haha umm easily
XheartnotwantedX: ...I don't see that
XheartnotwantedX: OOOOOO
XheartnotwantedX: I'm going to send you a file, except it
XheartnotwantedX: accept*
BloodyGovern: alrite
XheartnotwantedX wants to send file C:\My Documents\My Albums\Death cab for cutie - Transatlanticism - Title and Registration.mp3.
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: lol, I think you may like it, I didn't personally like it, until I read ther lyrics tho
BloodyGovern: ohh
XheartnotwantedX: Idk, its like one of those songs, it makes em want to cry, but Im way over emotional so yeah
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
BloodyGovern: well what is it about
XheartnotwantedX: well it starts off about the glove compartment, then to about love going away
XheartnotwantedX: its weird
BloodyGovern: glove compartment?
BloodyGovern: lmao
XheartnotwantedX: Lyric: the glove compartment, isn't accuratly named, and everybody knows it, cause behind its doors theres nothing to keep my fingers warm
XheartnotwantedX: http://www.lyricsondemand.com/d/deathcabforcutielyrics/titleandregistrationlyrics.html
BloodyGovern received C:\My Documents\My Albums\Death cab for cutie - Transatlanticism - Title and Registration.mp3.
BloodyGovern: i like the lyrics
BloodyGovern: im listening to it now
XheartnotwantedX: me too lol *listenbing to it, I put it on your cd lol*
BloodyGovern: lol nice!
BloodyGovern is away at 8:41:57 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:43:44 AM.
BloodyGovern: i really like that song
BloodyGovern: wicked good
XheartnotwantedX: YESSSS!!!!!!
XheartnotwantedX: nice
XheartnotwantedX: me= happpppppppy
BloodyGovern: haha because i think the songs awesome?
BloodyGovern: wow your easy to make happy
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: no, I got a new job
XheartnotwantedX: and that
BloodyGovern: ohhh
BloodyGovern: what job
XheartnotwantedX: its some auto work job,10 dollars an hour, under the table
BloodyGovern: awesome
BloodyGovern: im happy for you
BloodyGovern: !
XheartnotwantedX: OMG yes, awww thank you! I'll be able to do stuff now
BloodyGovern: haha yay!
XheartnotwantedX: yup...so after I start work, randomly one day expect flowers to eb at your door, like cheer up <3 Derek, and I'll jkust be like psh it was nothing, just trying to make you feel happiness lol
XheartnotwantedX: and then next time a guy approaches you, you can be like my friend got ym flowers, what will you do? bwa ha ha
BloodyGovern: i really like you
XheartnotwantedX: awwww thank you, I really like you too
BloodyGovern is away at 8:50:28 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:52:55 AM.
BloodyGovern: im soo depressed
BloodyGovern: arg
XheartnotwantedX: OOO I'm going to send you another song by the singers other band, awww hunny *hugs*
BloodyGovern: my x is over me already
BloodyGovern: i suck at life
BloodyGovern: i suck at everything
XheartnotwantedX: awww what???? how? how could he be? is he lying, noyou don't steph, your the best! really, I mean come on like everythign about you is like amazing, he has to eb lying
BloodyGovern: no hes definitely not.. and he didnt tell me he told my friends
XheartnotwantedX: well It just.....I mean how? is he stupid, I mean theres like no one out there better than you, is he like dense to the fact hes over like the best thing that could ever happen to him?
BloodyGovern: idk but im gonna cry
BloodyGovern: this really hurts
BloodyGovern: i dont even know why i care so much
XheartnotwantedX: don't cry, please, don't...it hurts, I know, I've been there, its just something everyone goes through, please Steph, your amazing, I don't know him,but I know you could do soooooo much better, I mean, in time he'll probrolly regret letting you, the most amazing girl on earth go, but I mean he cheated on you! like I mean really, you could have ANYONE you want, I mean, I'm sure theres someone outh there that would give you the world on a string, and the stars from the sky just to make you smile.
BloodyGovern: i doubt it, i always fall for the ones that give me nothing but guilt trips and stress
XheartnotwantedX: awwww hunny *hugs* trust me, you'll find someone who will truely like care for you with all their hearts!!!!! I mean you just need to know that you are amazing, and not stop til you find that someone, I mean take your time, cause obviously this stuff hurts a lot, but I mean just know...you are just like everything, like your sooo amazingly cool, amazingly beautiful!!!! like everything, just I don't know I suck at this shit, you just need to know that you don't deserve this shit!
BloodyGovern: thank you for talking to me
BloodyGovern: i feel better
XheartnotwantedX: I'm here for you hun, I care about you, and I just want you to eb happy , even though its hard, I'll be here for you, I'll do anything I have to to make you feel better, I reallyu just...you rule, you know?
BloodyGovern: thanks
XheartnotwantedX: ne time
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: what are friends for?
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: hehe, yay smile!
XheartnotwantedX: besides just because one moron claims hes over you, Im sure theres about 1579857659834576984576894566987465984649564946 guys who would give the world just to know you
BloodyGovern: i love you!
XheartnotwantedX: I love you too hun
BloodyGovern: im really happy im getting to know you
XheartnotwantedX: I'm happy too like I mean who would have known someone as like jaw droppingly georgous as you, could be just as cool, it shocked me
BloodyGovern: awww
BloodyGovern: see? this is why i love you
BloodyGovern: your soo fucking great
XheartnotwantedX: why? cause I tell you the truth?
XheartnotwantedX: like honestly, anyone who takes even just 5 minutes to knwo you should see this and know this, and tell you this!!!!
BloodyGovern is away at 9:10:20 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 9:21:19 AM.
BloodyGovern: hey
XheartnotwantedX: hi
XheartnotwantedX: you ok hun?
BloodyGovern: i have to go i have to get ready for stupid work
BloodyGovern: yea im alot better thanks to you
XheartnotwantedX: aww ok, and thats good, glad I could help
BloodyGovern: well i will talk to you tomorrow.. or i might call you during break today at work... is that ok?
XheartnotwantedX: oh and I'm updating my lj, about you, do you mind if I post this convo? of course!
XheartnotwantedX: its ok
BloodyGovern: no i dont mind
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: alrite ill definitely call you tonite
XheartnotwantedX: ok, cool yay!
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: *hug*
BloodyGovern: *mwuah*
XheartnotwantedX: w0000000t *faints*
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: tehe
BloodyGovern: well anyways i g2g rite now
XheartnotwantedX: ok I'll ttyl hun
BloodyGovern: bye bye babes.. ill call you later
XheartnotwantedX: ok, I'll be here
now more about steph, cause so many of you ask me...
steph, I met her like 2, possibly 3 months ago? at the seed of chucky with her, Mary, and Kristen. as soon as I saw her, my jaw instantly hit the floor, like holy shit, this girl has to be the mnost beautiful person I've ever had the pleasure to see in ym life, like my eyes couldn't believe what i was seeing, it was like just too much, so for the next lets see...um well since then I've been drooling over her, she had a boyfriend so I kept just this like woahhhh shes hott I'd give anything to get to know her, so just recently she IMed me and her and her boyfriend broke up, which most people would be like go for it, go for it, buttt just because shes her! liek a goddess! and I'm me, this sad little emo boy, I mean It may seem as if I'm like desperatly trying to get her, but I mean yeah, I do like her and shit, but I mean I like her to the point, were I don't want my feelings to ruin things, and I mean I'm still getting to know her better, right now,she's looking for a friend I mean I'm going to be here for her as as good of a friend as I can, and if things work out yay! if not, oh well, I'm not getting my hopes up. just telling her exactly what she should hear like 45768945786987459867 times a day. So I mean I'm just like a quiet admirer, so yeah, thats about all you need to know, besides the fact thats shes one of the most amazing people I've ever met in ym entire life!!!!!!!
ok without further ado....here is the convo we had, its long, I apologize for that!
XheartnotwantedX: good morning dahling
BloodyGovern: hello!
XheartnotwantedX: hi
BloodyGovern: hows your snowday
XheartnotwantedX: cold!!!!!! and blah, and how is yours?
BloodyGovern: haha well goos
BloodyGovern: good**
XheartnotwantedX: thats good, I made your cd
BloodyGovern: haha awesome!
XheartnotwantedX: yup!! andddd got your comment, and it made me smile, a lot
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: good!
XheartnotwantedX: yup, and then I went and posted pictures lol
BloodyGovern: posted pictures?
BloodyGovern: what do you mean?
XheartnotwantedX: I put pictures in my lj, of people and me *even though no one wants to see that lol*
BloodyGovern: haha im gonna see!
XheartnotwantedX: ok, have fun, I have half of Mary in one
BloodyGovern: im not seeing the picutres
BloodyGovern: where are they?
XheartnotwantedX: really, o do you see were it says stop counting the days?
BloodyGovern: ohh
BloodyGovern: haha got it
XheartnotwantedX: click on it, lol ok
BloodyGovern: haha nice pics
BloodyGovern: i see mary!
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: yup, hehe
XheartnotwantedX: I'm taking another of her friday, shes making me
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yupp, hehe I had a dream, and you and mary were in it
BloodyGovern: haha
BloodyGovern: what happened in it
XheartnotwantedX: well we were all hanging out, and Mary was ranting on about scott as she alwats does, and you were sittingf there being beautiful, as always, and I was just like all giggely, and I was obviously like paying attention to you much more than her, cause yeahh... and then she got pissed at me and threw a book at me, and it was weird
BloodyGovern: lmao
BloodyGovern: i feel soo bad about this scott thing
BloodyGovern: she is telling me about it right now
BloodyGovern: its wicked fucked up
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, but the major part was you being beautiful, yeah thats really all she ever talkks to me about
XheartnotwantedX: I feel bad shes this hurt over...him?
BloodyGovern: yea she really needs to get over him and find someone who can treat her right
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, someone whos not a complete morin
XheartnotwantedX: mpron*
BloodyGovern: she shouldnt even care about him anymore because he obvisouly doesnt care much about her if hes breaking promises
XheartnotwantedX: moron* grrr
XheartnotwantedX: exactly
BloodyGovern: yea
BloodyGovern: i just told her that but shes on an away message
BloodyGovern: der i am talking to this 14 yr old me and krisitn met at the mountain
BloodyGovern: he is soo immature
BloodyGovern: hes like bragging about doing drugs and shit
BloodyGovern: i hate people like that
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, oh well one day, she'll find someone who will sweep her off her feet, ewww what a retard
BloodyGovern: yea
BloodyGovern: to both comments
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: you see me, I don't do drugs, I drink occasionaly, but I dont talk about that yeah
BloodyGovern: yea i mean same here
XheartnotwantedX: OWWWWWW
BloodyGovern: well, i mean i do weed sometimes but its not that great
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I used to, but ..just can't handle it anymore
BloodyGovern: me and my friends accidently did weed that was laced with acid or something
BloodyGovern: so im really kinda scared about it now
XheartnotwantedX: damn! I used to do a lot of drugs, but just stoped cause I saw I was hurting ppl I loved, and I realized, i never want ro hurt anyone that i truley care about ever again, awwwww I sowwy *hug*
BloodyGovern: yeaa
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I dunno, I mean when I got high, I was the biggest asshole on earth...
BloodyGovern: haha
BloodyGovern: yea i know some people who are like that
XheartnotwantedX: so I quit
XheartnotwantedX: god, why is it so colddd
BloodyGovern: haha i have no icea
BloodyGovern: idea8*
XheartnotwantedX: lol, well I'm freezing my ass off, maybe I should go start a fire or something, anyhoo...how are you? *thought I'd ask*
BloodyGovern: im bored
BloodyGovern: and i dont wanna work tonite
BloodyGovern: argff
XheartnotwantedX: awww I sowwy
BloodyGovern: soooooooooooooooo
XheartnotwantedX: yes?
XheartnotwantedX: OOO Im sorry I didnt call yesterday, just as I was going to you IMed me
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: haha its alrite
BloodyGovern: i had to leave fast anyways
XheartnotwantedX: ok, I wanted to, I had the butterflie in my stomach, that I get when I called you the first time, ok, yeah
BloodyGovern: haha you had butterflies?
BloodyGovern: thats soo cute
XheartnotwantedX: I had like evil butterflies, like it was crazy, iwas soo nervous
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: dont be nervous around me lol!
XheartnotwantedX: I'll try, but I mean I have the perfect reasons to, i mean your like one of the coolest people EVER!!!!! *in my opinion* your one of the most beautiful creations to ever be put on this world, just I dunno, I mean perfect reasons to eb nervous lol
BloodyGovern: awww
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: lol, my fingers are fucking freezing, its not cool
BloodyGovern: lol wear mittens!
XheartnotwantedX: I don't have any , maybe I'll just go downstairs and start the fire place up
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: and and I like fire, its nice
BloodyGovern: pyro!
XheartnotwantedX: a little, but who isn't in this day and age?
BloodyGovern: lol yea i guess your right
XheartnotwantedX: w00t w00t
XheartnotwantedX: brb
BloodyGovern: ok
BloodyGovern: OMG i fucking love you haha you are soo adorable!
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Auto response from XheartnotwantedX: hehe
if your name starts wityh S and ends with teph
you are beautiful, cool, just all around amazing, you rule
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XheartnotwantedX: awww thank you
XheartnotwantedX: and I mean it
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX:
XheartnotwantedX: hehe I can't wait til the movies
BloodyGovern: i know me too!
BloodyGovern: its gonna be soo much fun
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, first time I get to see you sence, well the last time lol, I hope I'm not such a drooling, giggely idiot this time
BloodyGovern: haha you werent a drooling giggly idiot last time
BloodyGovern: actually we didnt even talk much
BloodyGovern: all i remember was that i dropped my nacho cheese
BloodyGovern: and i was mad!
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: LOL,I remember I when you left with Kristen and me and Mary were In there,I was allgiggely, then youcame back, and i was like quiet
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah.... I remember a few words I used that night, *describing you hehe*
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern: haha what were those
XheartnotwantedX: umm well there were, fucking most beautiful person i've ever seen, godess, *drool*, and so on
BloodyGovern: hahaha
XheartnotwantedX: yup..
XheartnotwantedX: too bad that movie sucked lol
BloodyGovern: what did we see
BloodyGovern: the seed of chuckie?
XheartnotwantedX: seed of chucky
BloodyGovern: haha that wicked sucked
BloodyGovern: i thought the kid was wicked cute though
BloodyGovern: he was like half japan half irish
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: lol, I mean Britteny speaRS AND redman died so I liked it, LOL yeah
BloodyGovern: haha well ya
BloodyGovern: it wasnt scary at all
XheartnotwantedX: and andf I got to meet you, an obvious plus, no not really
XheartnotwantedX: ^not scary
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX:
XheartnotwantedX: hmmm I feel like listening to music now, brb
BloodyGovern: ok
BloodyGovern: hahaha
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Auto response from XheartnotwantedX: wow!
you really are THAT amazing
like woahhhh
you know who you are coughstephcough
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XheartnotwantedX: bwa ha ha
XheartnotwantedX: grrr I need to figure out how to put the flash back on ym camera
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: *christmas present, LOOOOOOOOONG instruction booklet*
BloodyGovern: hahah
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, I'm bored, i should like go pole dancing down stairs LMAO jk
BloodyGovern: haha do it!
XheartnotwantedX: ahhh no one wants that...trust me
XheartnotwantedX: ok...it can stop snowing now
BloodyGovern is away at 8:05:52 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:07:00 AM.
XheartnotwantedX: hey
BloodyGovern: hii
XheartnotwantedX: I added a comment about you in my sub profile/ site thingee
XheartnotwantedX: *on the friends page thingee*
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: yup
BloodyGovern: haha thats nic
BloodyGovern: e
BloodyGovern: your soo nice
BloodyGovern: and cute
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: awwww thank you, you make me smile and blush...
BloodyGovern: haha you do the same to me
XheartnotwantedX: *and drool lol*
XheartnotwantedX: yay well I'm just saying what you should be hearing from every guy who even has the honor to look at you
XheartnotwantedX: or know you
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: thats cute
XheartnotwantedX: its true
BloodyGovern: i wish my x bf would think that
XheartnotwantedX: well if he doesn't hes a fucking idiot
XheartnotwantedX: I mean honestly, how could anynot not think at least that of you, you're like so amazing, and it just pisses me off that people could think less of that of you., it should eb illegal!!!!!
BloodyGovern: hahaha
BloodyGovern: oh if only
XheartnotwantedX: grr I say it is! so thats that! it is
XheartnotwantedX: wow whats up with Mary signing on and off?
XheartnotwantedX: and on and off
BloodyGovern: idk
XheartnotwantedX: hmmm peculiar
BloodyGovern: i think her computer is being gay
XheartnotwantedX: oic, that sucks
XheartnotwantedX: ok, now I'm pissed, I feel like breaking something
BloodyGovern: why!?!?
XheartnotwantedX: my ex is being a immature cunt faced cunt monger!!!!
BloodyGovern: well thats how x's are
XheartnotwantedX: yup....well Im friends with 99.9% of my exes, except her
BloodyGovern: ohh
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: grrr, she deserves tro get an std, and dieeee
BloodyGovern: lmao
BloodyGovern: thats a little harsh
BloodyGovern: im glad im not one of your x's lol
XheartnotwantedX: yeah, Im sorry LOL, no no its just her, who goes around spreading rummors and telling people I'm gay, and having all her gay friends hit on me
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: thats mean
BloodyGovern: but kinda funny
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: oh yeah, shes a cunt monger!
XheartnotwantedX: shes put me through a LOT of fucked up shit, I mean she can't just give it a rest
BloodyGovern: im sorry
XheartnotwantedX: its ok...whatever exes....blah
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: damn
BloodyGovern: how long ago was this?
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: Awhile ago
BloodyGovern: oh
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
XheartnotwantedX: w/e I blocked her, its all good
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah...anywaysss
BloodyGovern: im mad
XheartnotwantedX: why?
BloodyGovern: i told my x i like him and i was just fooling around but he didnt say it back
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: and it pisses me off
BloodyGovern: what should i say to him?
XheartnotwantedX: awwwww Im sorry, Im sure hes just being an idiot, and he'll say it back sooner or later
XheartnotwantedX: i don't know....
BloodyGovern: lol no he wont
XheartnotwantedX: how could he not, when its you!
BloodyGovern: haha umm easily
XheartnotwantedX: ...I don't see that
XheartnotwantedX: OOOOOO
XheartnotwantedX: I'm going to send you a file, except it
XheartnotwantedX: accept*
BloodyGovern: alrite
XheartnotwantedX wants to send file C:\My Documents\My Albums\Death cab for cutie - Transatlanticism - Title and Registration.mp3.
XheartnotwantedX:
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: lol, I think you may like it, I didn't personally like it, until I read ther lyrics tho
BloodyGovern: ohh
XheartnotwantedX: Idk, its like one of those songs, it makes em want to cry, but Im way over emotional so yeah
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: yeah
BloodyGovern: well what is it about
XheartnotwantedX: well it starts off about the glove compartment, then to about love going away
XheartnotwantedX: its weird
BloodyGovern: glove compartment?
BloodyGovern: lmao
XheartnotwantedX: Lyric: the glove compartment, isn't accuratly named, and everybody knows it, cause behind its doors theres nothing to keep my fingers warm
XheartnotwantedX: http://www.lyricsondemand.com/d/deathcabforcutielyrics/titleandregistrationlyrics.html
BloodyGovern received C:\My Documents\My Albums\Death cab for cutie - Transatlanticism - Title and Registration.mp3.
BloodyGovern: i like the lyrics
BloodyGovern: im listening to it now
XheartnotwantedX: me too lol *listenbing to it, I put it on your cd lol*
BloodyGovern: lol nice!
BloodyGovern is away at 8:41:57 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:43:44 AM.
BloodyGovern: i really like that song
BloodyGovern: wicked good
XheartnotwantedX: YESSSS!!!!!!
XheartnotwantedX: nice
XheartnotwantedX: me= happpppppppy
BloodyGovern: haha because i think the songs awesome?
BloodyGovern: wow your easy to make happy
BloodyGovern: lol
XheartnotwantedX: no, I got a new job
XheartnotwantedX: and that
BloodyGovern: ohhh
BloodyGovern: what job
XheartnotwantedX: its some auto work job,10 dollars an hour, under the table
BloodyGovern: awesome
BloodyGovern: im happy for you
BloodyGovern: !
XheartnotwantedX: OMG yes, awww thank you! I'll be able to do stuff now
BloodyGovern: haha yay!
XheartnotwantedX: yup...so after I start work, randomly one day expect flowers to eb at your door, like cheer up <3 Derek, and I'll jkust be like psh it was nothing, just trying to make you feel happiness lol
XheartnotwantedX: and then next time a guy approaches you, you can be like my friend got ym flowers, what will you do? bwa ha ha
BloodyGovern: i really like you
XheartnotwantedX: awwww thank you, I really like you too
BloodyGovern is away at 8:50:28 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 8:52:55 AM.
BloodyGovern: im soo depressed
BloodyGovern: arg
XheartnotwantedX: OOO I'm going to send you another song by the singers other band, awww hunny *hugs*
BloodyGovern: my x is over me already
BloodyGovern: i suck at life
BloodyGovern: i suck at everything
XheartnotwantedX: awww what???? how? how could he be? is he lying, noyou don't steph, your the best! really, I mean come on like everythign about you is like amazing, he has to eb lying
BloodyGovern: no hes definitely not.. and he didnt tell me he told my friends
XheartnotwantedX: well It just.....I mean how? is he stupid, I mean theres like no one out there better than you, is he like dense to the fact hes over like the best thing that could ever happen to him?
BloodyGovern: idk but im gonna cry
BloodyGovern: this really hurts
BloodyGovern: i dont even know why i care so much
XheartnotwantedX: don't cry, please, don't...it hurts, I know, I've been there, its just something everyone goes through, please Steph, your amazing, I don't know him,but I know you could do soooooo much better, I mean, in time he'll probrolly regret letting you, the most amazing girl on earth go, but I mean he cheated on you! like I mean really, you could have ANYONE you want, I mean, I'm sure theres someone outh there that would give you the world on a string, and the stars from the sky just to make you smile.
BloodyGovern: i doubt it, i always fall for the ones that give me nothing but guilt trips and stress
XheartnotwantedX: awwww hunny *hugs* trust me, you'll find someone who will truely like care for you with all their hearts!!!!! I mean you just need to know that you are amazing, and not stop til you find that someone, I mean take your time, cause obviously this stuff hurts a lot, but I mean just know...you are just like everything, like your sooo amazingly cool, amazingly beautiful!!!! like everything, just I don't know I suck at this shit, you just need to know that you don't deserve this shit!
BloodyGovern: thank you for talking to me
BloodyGovern: i feel better
XheartnotwantedX: I'm here for you hun, I care about you, and I just want you to eb happy , even though its hard, I'll be here for you, I'll do anything I have to to make you feel better, I reallyu just...you rule, you know?
BloodyGovern: thanks
XheartnotwantedX: ne time
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: what are friends for?
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: hehe, yay smile!
XheartnotwantedX: besides just because one moron claims hes over you, Im sure theres about 1579857659834576984576894566987465984649564946 guys who would give the world just to know you
BloodyGovern: i love you!
XheartnotwantedX: I love you too hun
BloodyGovern: im really happy im getting to know you
XheartnotwantedX: I'm happy too like I mean who would have known someone as like jaw droppingly georgous as you, could be just as cool, it shocked me
BloodyGovern: awww
BloodyGovern: see? this is why i love you
BloodyGovern: your soo fucking great
XheartnotwantedX: why? cause I tell you the truth?
XheartnotwantedX: like honestly, anyone who takes even just 5 minutes to knwo you should see this and know this, and tell you this!!!!
BloodyGovern is away at 9:10:20 AM.
BloodyGovern returned at 9:21:19 AM.
BloodyGovern: hey
XheartnotwantedX: hi
XheartnotwantedX: you ok hun?
BloodyGovern: i have to go i have to get ready for stupid work
BloodyGovern: yea im alot better thanks to you
XheartnotwantedX: aww ok, and thats good, glad I could help
BloodyGovern: well i will talk to you tomorrow.. or i might call you during break today at work... is that ok?
XheartnotwantedX: oh and I'm updating my lj, about you, do you mind if I post this convo? of course!
XheartnotwantedX: its ok
BloodyGovern: no i dont mind
BloodyGovern: lol
BloodyGovern: alrite ill definitely call you tonite
XheartnotwantedX: ok, cool yay!
BloodyGovern:
XheartnotwantedX: *hug*
BloodyGovern: *mwuah*
XheartnotwantedX: w0000000t *faints*
BloodyGovern: haha
XheartnotwantedX: tehe
BloodyGovern: well anyways i g2g rite now
XheartnotwantedX: ok I'll ttyl hun
BloodyGovern: bye bye babes.. ill call you later
XheartnotwantedX: ok, I'll be here