gahhh
I hate being bi polar!
why the fuck can't I be normal! why can't I just spend one day without wanting to kill myself, or someone else!
I'm sick of waking up feeling fine, then 10 minutes later just feeling like the world has given up on me, and just like honestly concidering killing myself.
I just displayed this to Beth...
I was all fine, then I got pissed, and figured whatever fuck her, and started telling her stuff, I knew would piss her off, then snapping, then like 30 seconds later like bawling my eyes out, feeling like shit, I do care about her, seriously I see Beth as a little sister! and I mean like I would never want to hurt her, and I see that I did, and its like OMG, I suck, I should just be like hey I'm going to call you tomorrow, and then shoot myself in the head, so i never can and she'll understand that i feel awful about my actions, I mean yeah i am an asshole, but I can't control it! I really can't I get mood swings, and I lose it.
so i just deserve to be locked up and become a big gay black man named bubas bitch!
I'm sorry! I suck at life
why the fuck can't I be normal! why can't I just spend one day without wanting to kill myself, or someone else!
I'm sick of waking up feeling fine, then 10 minutes later just feeling like the world has given up on me, and just like honestly concidering killing myself.
I just displayed this to Beth...
I was all fine, then I got pissed, and figured whatever fuck her, and started telling her stuff, I knew would piss her off, then snapping, then like 30 seconds later like bawling my eyes out, feeling like shit, I do care about her, seriously I see Beth as a little sister! and I mean like I would never want to hurt her, and I see that I did, and its like OMG, I suck, I should just be like hey I'm going to call you tomorrow, and then shoot myself in the head, so i never can and she'll understand that i feel awful about my actions, I mean yeah i am an asshole, but I can't control it! I really can't I get mood swings, and I lose it.
so i just deserve to be locked up and become a big gay black man named bubas bitch!
I'm sorry! I suck at life