Boring crap
I've cleaned up a few of my entries. Basically, I brought His Binding Cuff out of private viewing, since, I had hidden it mainly 'cos I was a bit embarrassed by it. As in, I was thinking it sucked loads and etc. But I'm over it. If it sucks, it sucks. I'm planning on editing it someday soon anyhow, so I might as well leave for whomever to read. I also deleted my rant from awhile back, and... I don't know if I've done anything else. A handful of entries are friends only, mainly because I feel uncomfortable allowing EVERYONE access to, but most are viewable by anyone. A few are just viewable to me, but they're like, from last year and are pretty much me talking about my life, friends, ex boyfriend, etc. Boring crap. Very, very.
to give you an update of some recent things:
I had been in an annoying writing funk for awhile. Basically I couldn't write a thing besides a sentence, paragraph, or two, and then hating it with a burning passion. So my WIPs have been sitting all lonesome, but I swear I'm working on finishing an update (for The Pack; the others are on hold for now since they suck lots). My main issue is that I'm having difficulty with characterization. It comes out so flat and just... not realistic at all. Kind of ping-pong, where they do this, say that, when really it's so out of character for them. I've realized that all my WIPs have that, and it just puts a damper in writing a new chapter when all I can think about is what a train-wreck the others are in (not that they're all bad or anything, just not what I want them at is all). If that makes sense...
I recently wrote a oneshot called It's All in the Words, I feel it has a slightly more portrayal of realistic characters, and situations, and without coming off so flat like my WIPs are. Not that it's like, grand and perfect and everything. It has a few things I could've probably improved in to make the characters more... well, better. Three dimensional (right reference?) I may write more of it some time, but it'll only be like drabbles, little scenes here and there.
I was thinking of trying out Nanowrimo this year, but to be honest, I don't think I'd succeed. Between work, life, and other crap, I just don't see me being able to do it. But I want to ;_; If I do then chances are, my stories will most def. be sitting all dusty and lonely again... gr.
On a weird, probably embarrassing note, I wrote my first vampire fic the other day. It was a oneshot slave/master thing but the next day I realized I didn't like it. I think it's because I wanted a different outcome then what I'd written. But to do so I'd have to rewrite the whole thing and I dunno if that's worth it. I may post it anyway (only on my LJ though). Um, yeah. I also kind of miss my one fic, Lessons Learned. At least, the characters. I'm thinking of rewriting it and picking it back up (with a slightly diff plot since that one is a bit... a lot, cliche).
Random: you know what I really really wanna see more of in slash? opposite uke/seme pairing. Like, the weaker/smaller/cliched labeled uke being the top when it comes to sex, while the stronger/taller/cliched labeled seme is the bottom. I think it'd be hot. Very very :) Like, Love Neko. That manga is freakin' awesome XD
Anyway, I think I'm done babbling. Ignore me.