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My Chemical Romance is an amazing band.
All of their songs mean so much to me.
When my grandma died, the only song I listened to was Helena.
I was only 9, and I didn't think I could carry on, but MCR got me through it.
I know I sound so retarded, haha, and some friends of mine have met Gerard and said he was careless and unpleasant to talk to. Which I don't doubt, because he is a celebrity.
But it's not who writes the music, but the message behind it that makes it count. ^-^
And the music is great.
Without My Chemical Romance, Dir en grey and Malice Mizer, I don't know where I would be right now.
But I wouldn't even wanna consider forgetting them. ^-^
Cage by Dir en grey got me through so much with relationships, and it sums up how I feel. Kinda like my mom never loved me, so how can I love someone correctly? And I am a bit of a masochist, haha~ XD
.impatient the masochist's blood runs in my veins I wait for you, the sadist
if I can do it with a poisonous kiss
because of sorrow I cannot see virtue you are the last mother
the memory buried so that you won't realise the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me is burned into my memory
see me resisting strongly and then kindly forcing a decision
I can never tell you
the creaking sound of leather hurts me let's make the wound even deeper
you, deeply jealous are you always so cold-hearted?
even now I don't want to forget the abuse of my childhood
why don't I have a mother? tell me...
someday I'll realise kindness inside the mother-like "cradle"...
because of anguish I cannot see before me my last mother
at least, so that you won't realise the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me is destroyed
were you too kind to me? the reflection of a trauma from long ago
I destroyed you, the last one am I a sadist?