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[bloodyxbert]

"there are plenty of fish in the sea"

who are you what do you want why are you here?
education?
yes.

retreats?
fucking yes.
rad.
i want to go to these, i will go to them.

be yourself
be free
push yourself,
you can do it :)
much love.

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she seems so...
angry at me or at something.
was it something i said?
did?
do?
feel?
the way i talk
the way she talks
the way we are

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i had a dream last night.
i spent some time with lionel.
oh that name makes me shiver,
and im sure it has made many girls shiver.
i was hanging out with lionel.
he is so skinny.
he wants me to be forward
and asks what we want to do
we walk towards his dorm
and he offers
this or that or
to kiss him....

at one point i walk past james
he starts walking with us
and i try and get rid of him
and then he says ok bye
i love you...
and i go and hug him
.
and lionel says
you know
it hurts when someone doesnt say i love you back.
and i say i kno
but i dont think i love him
i dont think i love him like i should.