May 16, 2009 21:56
I hope that when you're done being bitter at me, you'll decide to get in touch with me again.
I feel like shit that our friendship took such a massive blow over this.
I'm not sure what exactly happened that made you so upset. I know that I told you I was seeing someone and you seemed fine with it.. for a few months even.. then all of a sudden you flip the hell out.
I have some ideas, but I wont make any assumptions.
It really sucks, and I'm sorry if you were hurt. Even more upset that our friendship might not make it through this, but I have to point out in my defense.. through all the flirting and TWO DAMNED YEARS I spent trying to get back in your good graces.. all you ever really did was refer to me as a friend, so that is sort of what I figured we were. Friends. Sure I love you, and I think you're a great guy, but even in my last birthday card you referred to me as a friend. How long was I supposed to wait?
I know you wont see this here, which is partially why this is where I'm posting it. I think if I said it to you anywhere else, you might get angry and/or offended and we'd not make any sort of progress. I just needed to get it off my chest.
In case this IS the end of our friendship I have to say, you are one of the most decent guys I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and I'm really sorry that things have turned so sour.
Always,
Robin