I felt like doing an update.. though I don't have much to say.. I think.
So, this week... it was okay. I feel like I eliminated a lot of stress but sort of picked up a lot of responsibilities in its place. It doesn't make since I guess. I stayed home Monday because I need a major day off just to relax and get stuff done... not to mention my eye was bugging me because of a sti I developed over the weekend. Monday I got ahold of EMU and set up my registration appointment so that's out of the way :)! Everything will be set up in one visit then I just have to go to orientation. Getting ahold of Quality Driver Testing was next because I can take my test anytime after March 29th... so i'm determined to get it done ASAP. I figured it wouldn't be a problem using my dad's truck but when I asked him he blew up and was a royal dick about it... so that's a no. Mom is talking with my grandpa about the van eventually so i'm giving her time to do that which delays the drivers test a little bit... I suppose that's okay. A licese wont really be useful unless I have vehicle to use whenever I need it. Yea.. dad blowing up at me really made me realize that he never took part in my life. Thinking it over I think the only thing he did was say "Hey, you can live here but only until you graduate"... that's it. He doesn't buy me food and barks at me when I use his bread or cheese. >.<(). Eh.. oh well. Only a couple more months.. then i'm stressed to find a place to live. But i'll go over that later. After dad barked at me I got together with my mom to get food and talk about financial aide and filling out the FASFA form which we still haven't done. Damn her. I'm completely broke and i'm really freaking out about EMU turning me away because I can't afford it. I'm not sure about the insurance covering the whole thing because it did mention that EMU only accepts phase II and to eligible for phase II you need so many college credits already. Grrrr! So complicated. Going to get grociers ended up turning into "What's happening to grandma's ashes?" when mom ran into two of her sisters at the same time. So that wasn't very good for my mind hearing "No! That's stupid! Why there!?". I had to get away so I walked around Wal-mart for a while waiting for mom to get ahold of me to actually start getting groceries. Charles came over about a minute after I got inside the house and it was nice hanging out with him... as always. Going back to school Tuesday seemed like it would be hell finding out what we did but it wasn't. Due to block schedualing I didn't miss out on to much. I missed a chunk of Phantom of the Opera but we were only viewing it to get a look into Musicals.. we werent' taking notes or getting tested on it. In history we were watching Mercury so.. yea.. same deal as before only a history film. So not much missed. Morwen left her skirt thingy in Charles' van so I ended up giving that back to her at lunch. I got a very strange "Oh shit" look and she threw it away on the way out of the cafeteria.. so she must have not wanted it back that bad. Wednesday was another day I guess. Mel got a warning that she was going to get jumped and she was pissed because if they started anything she really couldn't interact because of the whole 18 years old thing. It was funny watching her little gerbil rage stuff going down the hall. "I swear i'm just waiting for someone to jump out and attack me! I'm so ready for the fuckers!" I couldn't help but laugh and everyone else was just like "Whoa.. might wanna back off" I'm used to it I suppose. Today was decent. *shrugs* In astronomy I pretty much A+ed the test again.. i'm overly impressed with how much I can learn if I actually try to learn it. It was a nice flashback of "eh.. I don't care i'm going to fail anyways... " to "I want to get good grades this year so I can bump my GPA up and feel good about myself". It was nice. In marketing Mr. Champion set up my OJT at Flower's and Such for May 1-12 and I don't have to do anything but go in and get papers signed. That doesn't solve my problem for the upcoming April one.. so i'm checking with Lowes or JoAnne's about one tomorrow during class. Also, Mr. Champion was impressed with my summary of an Economist article and wanted me to talk to the class about it. I was happy that I could understand it because he said it was the hardest business magazine to interperate because it was british. Heh.. yea. Before I had to discuss my article the fire alarm went of and we were stuck outside for a good half hour watching 3 fire trucks around the school. I talked with Amber a lot over that little break from class and it turns out I forgot to wish her a happy 18th birthday. She got her nose pierced yesterday and plans on getting a tattoo done soon. I also got invited her her wedding lol. I guess her boyfriend Cody proposed to her on her birthday. Little to soon to be getting hitched but.. not me so I don't care as long as she's happy. After getting back into the school the class found out that it was just some stupid kid who put something into the ventilation and caused the smoke from it to set off sensors.. stupid kid. School traveled on through the rest of the day at normal speed. Nothing much happened. After school I came home and checked my e-mail and other stuff then tried to force myself to eat more than the pizza from lunch. It was hard because I had gotten sick from it and I have this strange fear of puking. *shudders* After eating a little bit of hummus and bread I layed down and slept from 3 till about 8 then got up because my stomach was a little to bothersome. So... i've officially came up with a list of goals and dates that I want to achieve them by. But doing this didn't help me any because I realized that it wasn't going to be easy... i'm just not going to let them stress me out I suppose. I need to get a job.. really bad. I need money for college, a vehicle, future housing and other necessities. It's just a need. I probally would still have my job at Mc Donalds if they didn't demand that I come in at 3 on school days (it's impossible). Getting a vehicle is something I need now and I guess i'm not pushing that around to much. I'm waiting for mom to ask grandpa and giving her the time she needs to ask him. Getting financial aide for college is pissing me off. Mom needs to do it soon. Real soon. If she doesn't meet my goal of "by the end of March" I am not going to be happy. I'm not sure what i'm doing for houseing. Seriously. Dad is planning on me moving out in May after graduation and yea.. getting a job by then is a nice goal.. but it might not happen. I've actually been looking through newspaper ads around the ypsi area for small apartments with cheap rent but so far, no luck. If push comes to shove I just may have to live on campus which isn't what I want. *shrugs* Blah.. to much to think about. I'm going to head to bed.. again. Buh-bye.