Today!

[bloodyvile]

Well, I’m feeling much better =). Surprisingly I slept great last night and had some really pleasant dreams. Yay. School is school I’ll live lol. Wow I over react to a lot of situation and now I just feel really stupid about it. Not just that, this stress stuff has got to be hell on my relationship. Argh. (sorry dear). I think I’m going to go back to calming exercises and daily mind things. It always seemed to keep me pretty balanced and my Aunt Kal thinks it is an awesome idea. Not to worried about the money I lost last night. Yes, I lost. I’m going to just put the blame on myself until something or someone else tells me otherwise. I’ve got a pair of contacts and they will last me a month or so in that time I will have more money built up to buy a couple boxes. That stupid phobia situation.. bah. Yea.. I’m not sure. It will fly over and whatever happens will happen. If it happens to go against my wishes, so be it, I’ll just take what I have coming to me and take it well. Wow.. that sounded pretty awful. Ha. Well, it’s Valentine’s day.. I should be upset and mopieping around being pissy because of previous events but I’m fine. Hopefully Charles isn’t too busy or loaded with work and can come over. It would be nice to get a hug and apologize in person for being the bitch last night. I need to start controlling myself and how much of my problems I dump out instead of keeping them to myself.. hey wait.. that’s why I have a hard journal. Duh. I’ll just have to start making it a personal one I guess. Writing is the only real way I can analyze my problems and figure them out. Anyways… I’m going to go.

Charles: Happy V-day dear =P I love you!