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fuck.i can't sleep. my heart is racing [finally starting to calm down] i was stressing myself out over everything oh my god my chest is ready to explode. i kept thinking about stuff that didn't need to be thought about when i layed down. like for example. my great grandma lives in tennisee and i was going to email ward and when she goes i want to go to the funeral and i was thinking about getting down there but i'd have to be there with all the campbells who i would plan not to talk to any fucking one of them but i wanted to go because of great grandma campbell and i'd have to see ward [real dad] and be a bitch and i wonder if anything stupid would happen of if he'd have the guts to hit me [i doubt it but he's an asshole so you never know] and it was like oh my god. and then i went on to think about how i couldnt find my debit card. the whole situations at work. being in layaway tommrow. finishing school...what i'm going to do with my life. oh lord.
but anyways yeah i took an asprin and i'm starting to feel better just really really tired. my stomache is kinda upset too.
my heart has been racing a lot the last couple weeks. fucking scary. i'm afraid i'm going to have a heartattack one day. :/
anyways that is all.
going to try to go back to bed *frowns*
but anyways yeah i took an asprin and i'm starting to feel better just really really tired. my stomache is kinda upset too.
my heart has been racing a lot the last couple weeks. fucking scary. i'm afraid i'm going to have a heartattack one day. :/
anyways that is all.
going to try to go back to bed *frowns*