"If You Love Her... You'll Let Her Go So She Can Be Happy."
~Closer(2004)~
I feel a tear well up in my eye, and I wonder how there can still be any tears left to be shed
Will this be the last one?
Will I think of what expired here 10 years from now, and still feel the pain in my stomach and my heart?
I've just done the hardest thing I've ever done in my life
I let her go.
Why?
Cuz she's happy. Truly happy.
I can't give that to her...
Someone else can... but i can't
Sometimes I wonder if I even did.
A happiness that was long lasting, and what didn't last just a few minutes or hours
No, all i really brought was pain... and the sad thing is that was not my intention
I would... still... move mountains for her... die... for her. *sad smile, wistful* Hell I would have married her years down the road.
It's never simple
Deciding what should be
There's still a void here
When you're an absentee
You could be angry
But you're a bigger man
We know you'll make it
Never forget to stand
Sometimes the hardest things in life
Are the things we have to do
And even when we feel it's right
I never want to hurt you
You have always been
You always will
You have always been a part of me
~Juliana Theory: The Hardest Things
But I'm living in a dream world
I have been for quite some time
The dream ended a long time ago
In truth I woke up a long time ago
But I kept fighting to return to that same fantasy.
All I did was hurt myself... but especially I hurt her.
I've hurt her for too long...
Sure everyone is happy bout this.
Her Mum would be too.. thrilled is more like it.
"Finally that crazy boy has moved on".
I probably looked really stupid and desperate in front of everyone
And I know everyone is pretty much sick of me talking about "that chance"
I'll burden you all no further...
Hearts are never made of stone
Pain will cut you to the bone
But I know that holding you was all so wrong
So tonight's the last will ever be alone...
~Fuel: Running Away
I just hope she finds the happiness, and the love she's always wanted(and very much well deserves).
As for me... I guess my part in this is.. done now.
God.... it's over.
I can't believe it's over...
Take your head around the world
See what you get
From your mind
Write your soul down word for word
See who’s your friend
Who is kind
It’s almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you’ll be strong
You’ll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - oh no
No you won’t be mine
~Matchbox 20: You Won't Be Mine