Racing (for you, with you, but never without you)
Title: Racing (for you, with you, but never without you) Pairing: Hoya/Dongwoo
Rating: PG-13
Lenght: Oneshot, 3,999
Summary: Between dreams and reality he's still racing for that one person
A/N: Beta-ed by the amazing kiccy
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I. I can't even. I don't. I just.
And my heart. I can't even. MY HEART. I'm not even sure what I feel right now. I want to cry and laugh and scream and I can't breath and WHY? WHY DOES THIS FIC DO THIS TO ME? Words can't even express OTL
I've had this bookmarked to read for days and WHY? WHY DIDN'T I READ IT SOONER?
Omg. I'm sorry for this fail comment, but. But. I'll leave a more intelligble comment in a bit. After I've composed myself. Which may take a while OTL
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There's so much going on in it and it's so hectic and confusing but it's wonderful because as I read it I just felt like I was drowning.
The descriptions are just. Are. It's full of color and imagery, vague and vivid, defined and random all at once and I felt like I was having an acid trip or something. You pulled off the "dreamscape" feel flawlessly.
And the way you describe Dongwoo's (Hoya's Howon's) tears was just. Just. They were so emphasized and given such a strange vibe. It really got to me and I don't even know why it just like hit me somewhere in my heart and stuck.
...and those tears and their invisible marks- because they dried a long, long time ago, but Howon still remembers.
Because deep inside Howon knows those tears are his, are for him and will forever be.
He’s stuck between dreams and reality, between Howon and Hoya, and all seems like a never-ending mess of emotions and barriers and rainbow-colored tears.
He’s already lost track of what was once reality- for now he’s settling in for living in this kaleidoscope of changing emotions and situations and tears (Howon can never forget the tears).
... but dreams are hope and forgotten promises and tears. For Howon it has always been the tears.
Dongwoo’s ones.
Yupp. Copy-pasting like a bitch cuz I just had to.
And the whole part after "Howon slowly peeks in, feeling all secretive and mysterious..." Yeah. I just. UGH I WISH THERE WERE MORE WORDS TT____TT It was one of my favorite parts? If I can even have favorite parts in this (it's all so epic). Anyway, because it was drenched in that dreamlike atmosphere with the way he describes Dongwoo (especially his hair and eyes. Loved those descriptions) and it was just a perfect wtf moment when Hoya wakes up (except he didn't wake up? Dream within a dream? What is this fic my brain can't handle it OTL)
“I guess our dreams finally came true, huh?”
It took all of Hoya to create this. And it took one sentence from Dongwoo (the only one that still keeps and knows and maybe, just maybe loves Howon) to destroy it.
That just. That right there.
It made my insides melt and spew from my eyeballs. In a totally good way.
And their hands are closer, closer, closer. That’s the closest they’ve been since houses built on trees and dreams of flying and fame and money and being grown up. Howon realizes that Hoya has always been the one he has been idolizing throughout all these years. But Hoya isn’t real, and he isn’t Howon (at least not completely), and that’s all that really matters. He doesn’t know if he’s completely ready to kick him out and to find what he once was. But there’s Dongwoo, and he reminds himself that as long as there’s Dongwoo there will be a Howon next to him.
Yes. I rely heavily on copy-past and gifs OTL
I love how you compared and contrasted Hoya/Howon. It was just. It was beautiful. It was like this constant stream of pulling together and pushing apart, crashing and bouncing back, colliding and mingling and weaved so intricately and I can't even express.
I really want to draw a picture of what this fic made me feel. It would be so full of color and collision and layer after layer of intricacy and just GOD I REALLY WANNA DRAW SOMETHING YOU HAVE INSPIRED ME SO MUCH.
And the ending was. See above Jackie Chan mindfuck pic.
Gosh. This comment. It's so ridiculous I almost don't want to post it but I will because I'm an annoying ranting raving fangirl. But it doesn't even do this fic justice. My brain can't think of an adequate way to praise this. This. Just. You will never know the true extent of my love for this. You. You are amazing/beautiful/perfect.
*glomps*
I predict I will reread this 8349782302 times in the next two days.
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I'm a little bit childish, really insecure and I was even thinking of giving up writing recently- but God I will not even if for one comment like yours~ You have made me feel so happy and giddy and how can you even give me such a big confidence boost!?
Oh, you draw? That's so cool ♥
Dear just once again you have no idea just how much this means to me ♥ *glomps you* This was my first try in the Infinite fandom and I was just glad that people even commented ~ Thank you so so much ^^
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You are the first person who notices or comments at least on this whole tear ordeal *hands you a cookie* Basically it was a constant through-out the story as you noticed and sort of a accent ~
And once again thank you so so much dear (God I can't stop repeating that~) You are just the first person to ever comment on my stories with such enthusiasm and the gifs, the quoting.... *tears up and hugs you*
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Yes, I do draw :3 (albeit not very good, and on top of that I'm in an "experimentation stage" of sorts) and this really does make me want to do something abstract... but I'll have to buy more colored pencils first if I ever decide to actually do it ;~~~~; so expensive...
*devours cookie* :D the tears really were one of my favorite things ;v; *has to stop myself before I start ranting again*
I'm an enthusiastic reader, who loves to share my enthusiasm with capslock and button mashing and stuttering and copy-past/gifs and maybe a little coherency if you're lucky xD and you deserve to be enthused about ;v;
For a first shot at the infinite fandom, you did pretty. Awesome. Write more, yeah? (especially YaDong, otp forever and ever) *brainwashes you*
<3
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