i am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
i havent written in this thing for a long time (47 weeks to be exact)
but i havent felt like this in a long time.
i just wish i was good enough for you
i dont understand what i do that is so wrong and so different
but of course shes better
i could even work full time and be in school and i still wouldnt impress you
i need a break to.. im exhausted mentally
im sick of the same old fight
i wanna follow my dreams and my hopes
and i wanna fail on my own and learn from my mistakes
its like im still in grade 9
ive grown so much the past year and yet its like nothings changed
im so sick of your lectures and making me feel like an idiot.
i know right from wrong.. im careful im smart im not naive
and im tired of trying to impress people i dont even know
i should never have to change who i am because someone might talk about me
isnt that what you taught me? i guess i misunderstood
act like people want you to act so they wont talk about you
these standards just need to go away.. there just not me
im sorry
i hate feeling like this....