Trying
its been about a week since jim and i broke up. its still pretty hurtful for me, and im still pushing myself even harder to get the strength to get over him. im not doing so well in school, i wanna try but i just cant. it seems like im just losing control of alot of things in mylife. i feel a little better about this whole thing.. i feel like im slowly getting over him. i deleted all my sources of seeing whats going on in his life, and what hes doing (i deleted him from my buddylist, phone,myspace, pictures on my computer..) it was really hard for me, but hopefully it will help me in the long run. he left for new york.. im not sure when hes coming back.. im trying really hard not to think about him though.. ive been going out alot more, trying to go back to my normal self again, to forget about him. i dont even understand why i miss him so much. he treated me like shit the last month we went out. its like all he cared about was drugs and hanging out with everyone else. he never wanted to be alone with me. maybe im just so desperate to be loved and when he told me he loved me i was instantly attached to him.. i cant help it though. everyone wants the feeling of being loved. its probably the greatest feeling in the world, and i havent had it from a guy in so long. i just wanted it back