here goes..
promised someone i would write in this thing more often. so..
this is what's currently going down.. Jason and Jeremy are down stairs playing halo. not a fan of just watching halo. scotty is playing fetch in between rounds..and i'm upstairs wishing my nose would make up its mind on whether it wants to be stuffy, runny, or allowing me to breathe.
i watched x-men evolution last night while jason was at work. pretty awesome for a prequel. not many of those going around..so i was impressed. i finally painted..just kinda said to hell with it, laid down a newspaper and sat in the middle of the floor. quite uncomfortable..but, atleast i had some form of entertainment. kinda gets boring just watching videos and such. i've been reading a lot. so, i really can't complain. i enjoy that quite a bit. but, i'm having to pace myself..because i can't afford to buy a new book every other day or so. (maybe i can add books to my x-mas list this year)
i've had the last two days off from work, and i've spent those coughing up all sorts of nasty stuff. so, not too fun there. Me and Sally went to the store yesterday. i helped her cook diner and i made banana pudding. haven't had that in some time, and considering i used off-brand items it was pretty tasty. i also bought a 50lb pumpkin. gotta love halloween. looking forward to it. its on a saturday this year..and i have saturdays off. so, i could use a little halloween this year for sure. so, i'm kinda excited about that. though, i left some of my "gothic" clothes back at grandma's in the spare closet..cause i couldn't squeese anymore stuff in my car. so, thats kinda a shame..but, i'll think of something i'm sure.
i need to dye my hair. the violet streaks finally faded..and now it just looks like i've got a rogue look going on now. i kinda like it on some days..then other days i can't stand looking at it. so, i guess when i get some petty cash, i'll spend it on hair dye. sounds like a plan if i do say so.
heather and i have been talking a bit. its been nice. honestly i didn't expect it. though then again..every time we committ to never speaking again..one of us cracks. in a round about way i think we're addicted to one another. she attracts a bit of drama around her and makes things more interesting..while i'm a little more laid back and bring on the comedy. the only thing that really gets in our way is how we deal with conflicts. we repeal eachother with our defiance modes..and with that inevitably pushes us in different directions..then WHAM!!! we're back together and laughing like nothing ever changed..its almost refreshing..but, i've caught myself thinking about it a lot lately. are we going to just push away again..let something come between us..again..have to go through the drama and tension..again..with that said..she invited me out to coffee sometime..thats when i got to thinking about all that other stuff. part of me just says "what could it hurt" but, i've enjoyed just talking to her that i'm afraid to actually go out and just end up back where we were. naturally i over analyze everything and maybe thats what i'm doing now..just thinking too much about it. so, reguardless even though i'm writting this all down..i know that i'll eventually go out anyway..because again..its like an addiction. i'll relapse before you know it. ha. i've also wondered what that would do to jason..i'm not sure what happened in the end of that..but..from what i'm thinking it didn't come to them parting on good terms. so..i'm not sure if i want to russel any feathers with either party at the moment..now that i've reread all of this..it kinda sounds like i'm being mean..not my intentions at all. i don't want anyone to feel upset..for once i'm weighing all the pros and cons and again..probably thinking too much about it. so, for now..i'll see where things go..and just leave it at that. just spoke to jason about it..and he said that he doesn't have a problem with it. told me to do what i felt was right and he'd stick by me no matter what..GOD I LOVE HIM!!! so, again..here's to relasping..
with that note, i'm gonna take my sick ass down stairs and take a shot to make my throat feel better..and enjoy the rest of my day..
this is what's currently going down.. Jason and Jeremy are down stairs playing halo. not a fan of just watching halo. scotty is playing fetch in between rounds..and i'm upstairs wishing my nose would make up its mind on whether it wants to be stuffy, runny, or allowing me to breathe.
i watched x-men evolution last night while jason was at work. pretty awesome for a prequel. not many of those going around..so i was impressed. i finally painted..just kinda said to hell with it, laid down a newspaper and sat in the middle of the floor. quite uncomfortable..but, atleast i had some form of entertainment. kinda gets boring just watching videos and such. i've been reading a lot. so, i really can't complain. i enjoy that quite a bit. but, i'm having to pace myself..because i can't afford to buy a new book every other day or so. (maybe i can add books to my x-mas list this year)
i've had the last two days off from work, and i've spent those coughing up all sorts of nasty stuff. so, not too fun there. Me and Sally went to the store yesterday. i helped her cook diner and i made banana pudding. haven't had that in some time, and considering i used off-brand items it was pretty tasty. i also bought a 50lb pumpkin. gotta love halloween. looking forward to it. its on a saturday this year..and i have saturdays off. so, i could use a little halloween this year for sure. so, i'm kinda excited about that. though, i left some of my "gothic" clothes back at grandma's in the spare closet..cause i couldn't squeese anymore stuff in my car. so, thats kinda a shame..but, i'll think of something i'm sure.
i need to dye my hair. the violet streaks finally faded..and now it just looks like i've got a rogue look going on now. i kinda like it on some days..then other days i can't stand looking at it. so, i guess when i get some petty cash, i'll spend it on hair dye. sounds like a plan if i do say so.
heather and i have been talking a bit. its been nice. honestly i didn't expect it. though then again..every time we committ to never speaking again..one of us cracks. in a round about way i think we're addicted to one another. she attracts a bit of drama around her and makes things more interesting..while i'm a little more laid back and bring on the comedy. the only thing that really gets in our way is how we deal with conflicts. we repeal eachother with our defiance modes..and with that inevitably pushes us in different directions..then WHAM!!! we're back together and laughing like nothing ever changed..its almost refreshing..but, i've caught myself thinking about it a lot lately. are we going to just push away again..let something come between us..again..have to go through the drama and tension..again..with that said..she invited me out to coffee sometime..thats when i got to thinking about all that other stuff. part of me just says "what could it hurt" but, i've enjoyed just talking to her that i'm afraid to actually go out and just end up back where we were. naturally i over analyze everything and maybe thats what i'm doing now..just thinking too much about it. so, reguardless even though i'm writting this all down..i know that i'll eventually go out anyway..because again..its like an addiction. i'll relapse before you know it. ha. i've also wondered what that would do to jason..i'm not sure what happened in the end of that..but..from what i'm thinking it didn't come to them parting on good terms. so..i'm not sure if i want to russel any feathers with either party at the moment..now that i've reread all of this..it kinda sounds like i'm being mean..not my intentions at all. i don't want anyone to feel upset..for once i'm weighing all the pros and cons and again..probably thinking too much about it. so, for now..i'll see where things go..and just leave it at that. just spoke to jason about it..and he said that he doesn't have a problem with it. told me to do what i felt was right and he'd stick by me no matter what..GOD I LOVE HIM!!! so, again..here's to relasping..
with that note, i'm gonna take my sick ass down stairs and take a shot to make my throat feel better..and enjoy the rest of my day..