things only connor oberst would fully understand
i went to work today for the first time in like 2 or 3 months
and i a remember why i hated it so much
it seems to always remind me of the fact that i am a huge loser
not only because the plethora of conversing young and old customers
but becuase of the people i work with....
without naming names i would like to give you a little taste of my frustrations
first ... is a female , an oversexed female, who has screwed our black manager and another one who quit along time ago
second .... a short superficial mexican who is a pathetic music and movie elitist he thinks that hes hott shit becuase he owns more then 300 hundred movies ... and makes fun of my hieght even though hes about 2 inches taller then me..and im sure he spreads the rummor that i cheated on brandon as far as it can go ........which doesnt help anything....
and then theres this other bitch who along with annoyance number one filled out an application with my name on it and filled it out to say that i used to be a prostitute ,im the spawn of satan and that my social secrurety number is 666... and other things along that line
and then the other ones are just douche bags that have never had a conversation with me but still think they have a valid opinion about my personality
and this frustrates me so much becuase im a good friend......
i keep secrets... i dont talk shit behind anyones back......and i dont whore around
but i always seem to be the odd one out......
ive never wanted to kill myself .. but id love to run away .... or be invisible
fuck that... i already am invisible
its like the only time im not is when im singled out to be laughed at....or when im with brandon...but that too is bitter sweet becuase we are always with atleast one of his friends and they always go into these long conversations about people in their shcool..... and it sucks because i dont know anyone at their school so ..you know... thats a really long and boring conversation to just sit and listen to... and then i cant help but feel small becuase i know about 5 people at mine
i just feel like im in everyone's way
brandon tells me ..."who gives a fuck what they think" and "dont let it bother you"
easier said then done.... i dont even think hes trying to understand
typing all these things makes me feel like a big baby.....
i have so much on my mind and i need to sort it out
but i have so many distractions ....
and i a remember why i hated it so much
it seems to always remind me of the fact that i am a huge loser
not only because the plethora of conversing young and old customers
but becuase of the people i work with....
without naming names i would like to give you a little taste of my frustrations
first ... is a female , an oversexed female, who has screwed our black manager and another one who quit along time ago
second .... a short superficial mexican who is a pathetic music and movie elitist he thinks that hes hott shit becuase he owns more then 300 hundred movies ... and makes fun of my hieght even though hes about 2 inches taller then me..and im sure he spreads the rummor that i cheated on brandon as far as it can go ........which doesnt help anything....
and then theres this other bitch who along with annoyance number one filled out an application with my name on it and filled it out to say that i used to be a prostitute ,im the spawn of satan and that my social secrurety number is 666... and other things along that line
and then the other ones are just douche bags that have never had a conversation with me but still think they have a valid opinion about my personality
and this frustrates me so much becuase im a good friend......
i keep secrets... i dont talk shit behind anyones back......and i dont whore around
but i always seem to be the odd one out......
ive never wanted to kill myself .. but id love to run away .... or be invisible
fuck that... i already am invisible
its like the only time im not is when im singled out to be laughed at....or when im with brandon...but that too is bitter sweet becuase we are always with atleast one of his friends and they always go into these long conversations about people in their shcool..... and it sucks because i dont know anyone at their school so ..you know... thats a really long and boring conversation to just sit and listen to... and then i cant help but feel small becuase i know about 5 people at mine
i just feel like im in everyone's way
brandon tells me ..."who gives a fuck what they think" and "dont let it bother you"
easier said then done.... i dont even think hes trying to understand
typing all these things makes me feel like a big baby.....
i have so much on my mind and i need to sort it out
but i have so many distractions ....