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well hello.
so far this year has suxed. big time. im constatly getting yelled at any everything else. im ignoreing everyone and my grades are dropping. felicia is getting distant from me and its all my fault. why do i even bother. and she says she is even getting use to us not hanging out. i havent been able to go anywhere or do anything in such a long time. ive been cooped up with my family doing what ever they do and what ever they say for who knows how long. i dont even know why anyone cares about me. cuz one day they will be hundreds of miles away from me and wont have any control over my life. ill be by myself. after high school everyone will go there separte ways and ill have no one to help me but myself. ill have to take care of myself and no one else. ill be separted from my friends and family. sure epople may say they care about me now tell me "i love you" but do they actually mean it?? where will they be in 15 years? we wont be in the same school seeing each other every day. we become apart and distance ill have no one to help me but myself. everyone wil have thier own problems and their own life. no one will care about me in 15 years. ill have to fend for myself. so then why do people care about me now? i doubt anyone will ever read this. people what to know whats wrong. why? what can you do that will help me?? nothing. all it does is make you worry about me. not like anyone needs to worry about me. they will forget about me in the future. i dont need anyone to pity me. i dont need anyone. theres nothing they can do that will make my life better. mind as well start ignoring and forgetting about me know, yyou guys had no problems doing that last year, and you wont now.
so far this year has suxed. big time. im constatly getting yelled at any everything else. im ignoreing everyone and my grades are dropping. felicia is getting distant from me and its all my fault. why do i even bother. and she says she is even getting use to us not hanging out. i havent been able to go anywhere or do anything in such a long time. ive been cooped up with my family doing what ever they do and what ever they say for who knows how long. i dont even know why anyone cares about me. cuz one day they will be hundreds of miles away from me and wont have any control over my life. ill be by myself. after high school everyone will go there separte ways and ill have no one to help me but myself. ill have to take care of myself and no one else. ill be separted from my friends and family. sure epople may say they care about me now tell me "i love you" but do they actually mean it?? where will they be in 15 years? we wont be in the same school seeing each other every day. we become apart and distance ill have no one to help me but myself. everyone wil have thier own problems and their own life. no one will care about me in 15 years. ill have to fend for myself. so then why do people care about me now? i doubt anyone will ever read this. people what to know whats wrong. why? what can you do that will help me?? nothing. all it does is make you worry about me. not like anyone needs to worry about me. they will forget about me in the future. i dont need anyone to pity me. i dont need anyone. theres nothing they can do that will make my life better. mind as well start ignoring and forgetting about me know, yyou guys had no problems doing that last year, and you wont now.