Once more I'll say good-bye to you
Today is just one of those days where you just want to break down and cry. Everything is over whelming and I'm either gonna punch some one in the face or cry. So I cry cause I cant punch someone. I miss elise alot a real freaking lot. I dont want to be in this wedding anymore. I dont want to be tan and wear my hair up and wear this light pastel purple dress. I dont want to. But I will cause it means a lot to Michelle. I can't solve everyones problems. I can barely deal with my own. grrr I just broke something...yay me. When everything seems to go right. I always mess up with a wrong. And today is just a horriblie day. I make the mistake of not reading directions on a quiz, I have Religious school tonight, my parents hate me and so do my friends. Yay lets all clap for Jen for being the worst person ever. Yay me Yay me Yay me!! *rolls eyes* I'm disgusting myself. I am going to get away from Stupid Stratford this weekend. I'll go to trumbull and shop with my cousin and by monday I will be all better. I hope. Sorry Doille for messing things up again but you said you didnt think you could chill anyway so no harm done right? Elise I will still be there for you for your Semi-Formal to get everything ready and make you look beautiful. Okay tell me why I feel an obligation to help someone who has made the past (almost year) of my life living hell and making me feel like some sex toy he could just throw around when ever he wanted? Why do I help him? Someone please answer me!!! *SCREAMS then breaks down and cries* I dont want to do this anymore