Maybe I could give this another shot or sing about a broken heart
hmm so its verry early in the morning and I have no mother fucking clue why I'm up. Elise is sleeping upstairs and I am just sitting down here typing. I'm extreamly tired and worn out but no I always have to keep being awake and there for people. Its really starting to annoy me. then again so is everything else in life. for the first time I am actually worried about myself. or angry with myself I dont even know. Its just that I've been on the fucking edge so much lately I cant even have a conversation with out getting pissed off. I really cant. well with elise and some other people yes I can but its just everyone else. Even my parents all I want to do is scream and scream until they go away. I want to be alone lately and thats not good. I dont trust myself by myself...........not that I'm gonna go kill myself its just I might set my house on fire or do something insane like that. Im pushing people away and I know it ..........and my night mares are killing me because everyone is just dying and you know what I dont care anymore. Well of course I wake up crying cause I dont want them to die......but some other part of me is like well there gone now so you can be free from them. and its just like NO! what the fuck! I cant do it anymore I just cant.............Like I said I'm NOT gonna go kill myself................I just dont know what to do