Set me free your Heaven's a Lie
HE FUCKING LEFT HER!!! HE MOTHER FUCKING LEFT HER!!! I cant go on........I really really cant. I dont want to even read anymore! ITs just to painful. I'm about to go punch the author in the fucking face. She ruined my perfect escape. mother fucker. So this morning I actually cried. Yes I Jen cried. This may seem stupid but it was over the fact that he left her it was just to unbarable even for me. Errghh well I'm gonna have to finish the book. So I guess this book like set me off or something cause all day I was just really really depressed. And then when my dad picked me up I had a fucking break down in the car. I cried for about 15 min which I never do that. All cause of my stupid mother. Its sad I am trying to do something nice for her and I just get yelled at . Any way I feel like no one really cares about the nice things I do. So I decided that I'm not gonna do nice things anymore. The saying "No good dead goes unpunished." is gonna be something I'm living by. Its not like I want attention for what I'm doing.......I Dont. I just dont want to be yelled and screamed at and feel like Im some worthless peice of shit. Its annoying and uncalled for. Somedays I just wish I had the power to make people feel how I feel. Oh I saw my buddy Frank today. Stupid idiot got himself suspended for punching someone in the face. No offence the kid did deserve it but I mean come on wait till your not in the middle of the hallway. I guess I would have done the same thing tho cause it was pretty affensive and when you lose your temper you lose your temper. he also got kicked out of his step-dads house for calling him a faggot. and now hes living at wooster park. I'm worried about him. *sigh* I guess everything in life just cant be perfect they way they are in books........speaking of books I'm gonna go read mine.