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I'm home sick ....again..... I have the worst head ache of the century. yay for me. So since I have the whole day to myself I've been doing some thinking. I'm really buggin out about thursday I really wish it would NEVER come. Idk why I'm like this.........well yeah I do...............I just don't get why its bothering me. I can usually be really calm about it until I get there but no not anymore. And as usual I'm more worried about all my friends then I am myself. I'm just worried about everyone especially Nicki. This whole Hippie thing is starting to get to me. I mean what if she becomes a druggie? What if she really does believe in free love and ends up with an STD or a freaking child??? I'm not leaving her..........so no one say that. She's gonna NEED someone to help her and be there for her. And of course I'll do it I just dont want to see her get into that situation. URGHHH I dont know how to talk her out of it. I dont know if this is to impress Danny or John or just cause she wants to do it. I mean both guys like wild girls so it would make sense for her to change to get them to like her. But is it really liking her if she changed? Isnt love supposed to be where you are Yourself around the other person? So is it really love if shes not being herself?.................hahahaha now I'm thinking about love...........this is just great.......