nothing
george moved all his shit out yesterday.... everything.
im all alone here til the end of the month
i cant believe i was strong enough to actually follow through with him leaving NOW
i cry all the time, the only time im not is when im working even then it takes everything inside me to hold my composure
i started saying something about it to chris(the other teacher in my class) and i almost did start to cry so i just shut up right then
i've never felt quite this alone i didnt really realize how much faith/needy-ness i had for him.
hes not the only reason im upset... i dont wanna go home to my parents house. i feel even more alone there... the house i grew up in with all the painful memories... i dont wanna sound all psycho but... i dont think im going to be able to handle it... not at all. all my strength is gone, ive tried so hard and put so much into me and george... i have nothing left
so much reminds me of him... almost everything.
i havent eaten since.... hmmm tues or wed night with shawn.... i cant hold anything down i eat then either right after or gimme an hour... nothing stays in my stomach i dont know why. im not even hungry any more.
i dont wanna eat i dont wanna sleep i dont wanna go to work i dont wanna go any where... i just wanna lay in my bed and not move and not do anything
its happening all over again, i can feel it. this time its so much worse... never again. no more being close to anyone or trying to be... seriously FTW.... another thing that reminds me of him FTW but its true
FUCK THE WORLD
im all alone here til the end of the month
i cant believe i was strong enough to actually follow through with him leaving NOW
i cry all the time, the only time im not is when im working even then it takes everything inside me to hold my composure
i started saying something about it to chris(the other teacher in my class) and i almost did start to cry so i just shut up right then
i've never felt quite this alone i didnt really realize how much faith/needy-ness i had for him.
hes not the only reason im upset... i dont wanna go home to my parents house. i feel even more alone there... the house i grew up in with all the painful memories... i dont wanna sound all psycho but... i dont think im going to be able to handle it... not at all. all my strength is gone, ive tried so hard and put so much into me and george... i have nothing left
so much reminds me of him... almost everything.
i havent eaten since.... hmmm tues or wed night with shawn.... i cant hold anything down i eat then either right after or gimme an hour... nothing stays in my stomach i dont know why. im not even hungry any more.
i dont wanna eat i dont wanna sleep i dont wanna go to work i dont wanna go any where... i just wanna lay in my bed and not move and not do anything
its happening all over again, i can feel it. this time its so much worse... never again. no more being close to anyone or trying to be... seriously FTW.... another thing that reminds me of him FTW but its true
FUCK THE WORLD