Oct 17, 2003 10:01
AH! life has been mad stressful lately. between work school and all other shit that goes on in my daily non-fiction events.
I HAVENT REALLY BEEN TALKING TO NATY AS MUCH AS I WANT TO. things have been really wierd since we ended our 2year'er' i really miss talking to her on the phone and reading her letters and all the other good stuff that comes with having a significant other. i really do know what i should do. i hate the fact that we are not going out, but then again im curious to see how things in my life and hers will work out or evolve for that matter.
i have been so contemplative about everything lately. i cant stop my mind from analyzing everything that goes on in my life. i hate everything now. i need to find something to take my mind off things. not drugs because now when i smoke all i do is think about is this shit. i need to find friends to chill with and go to shows and have fun and do crazy shit. well i already have them so i guess i should just start chilling more.
i hate school. i really really do. i cant focus at all. i have been procrastinating my way to sleepless nights. too much work not enough bullets damnit.
-eh my words are withered-