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what i told him on my xanga:
that was a bullshit reason. saying it would be better for me this way. WHAT THE FUCK. no it wouldn't. without you, i have no reason to go out. staying at home is the worst thing for me right now. its not that she makes me think of it, she does it rigt in front of me. what the fuck am i suposed to do?
well, this didn't catch me off gaurd or anything. i knew it was comeing. but somehow it didn't take that long for me to get over you, maybe 20 or 30 minutes of crying after i hung up. the hardest thing for me is knowing that i have noone now. i was never in love with you. i was in love with us. the relationship. knowing i had someone there who possibly cared.
fuck it.
yea..i told him and he broke my heart. that was my worst fear
that was a bullshit reason. saying it would be better for me this way. WHAT THE FUCK. no it wouldn't. without you, i have no reason to go out. staying at home is the worst thing for me right now. its not that she makes me think of it, she does it rigt in front of me. what the fuck am i suposed to do?
well, this didn't catch me off gaurd or anything. i knew it was comeing. but somehow it didn't take that long for me to get over you, maybe 20 or 30 minutes of crying after i hung up. the hardest thing for me is knowing that i have noone now. i was never in love with you. i was in love with us. the relationship. knowing i had someone there who possibly cared.
fuck it.
yea..i told him and he broke my heart. that was my worst fear