you not caring really hurts
i'm bored so i've been reading all of my ex friends LJs
i hate crying
they're having so much fun without me. no one's saying "hey wish sarah d was there when this and this happend" they don't even care.
i just wish i could at least talk with leni and tuesday like we used to. i don't want the last thing tuesday said to me be "everyone here is half mexican, what are you doing here" it fucking sux.
i just wish we could spend one more day together as friends. talking about the good times we've had. laughing at the same stupid jokes.
i have no one to run to now when ever bad shit happends.
i can't go to anyones house and hide from all the fighting.
this year has been the worst one ever:
my mom quits her job
my mom and scotts fighting get out of hand.
they get divorced
my mom and i are homeless, living in a one bedroom apartment with my grandma
one good thing happens, i fall in love with nick brown thanks to my best friends leni and tuesday
leni and tuesday diside i need to choose between the guy i'm in love with and my best friends.
i tell them i can't choose so they leave me.
i'm left with no one.
there used to be a time where i could just sit all alone in my room in the dark....
I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING DO THAT ANYMORE!!!!!!
maybe i will kill myself. not like theres anything important to do tomorrow
i hate crying
they're having so much fun without me. no one's saying "hey wish sarah d was there when this and this happend" they don't even care.
i just wish i could at least talk with leni and tuesday like we used to. i don't want the last thing tuesday said to me be "everyone here is half mexican, what are you doing here" it fucking sux.
i just wish we could spend one more day together as friends. talking about the good times we've had. laughing at the same stupid jokes.
i have no one to run to now when ever bad shit happends.
i can't go to anyones house and hide from all the fighting.
this year has been the worst one ever:
my mom quits her job
my mom and scotts fighting get out of hand.
they get divorced
my mom and i are homeless, living in a one bedroom apartment with my grandma
one good thing happens, i fall in love with nick brown thanks to my best friends leni and tuesday
leni and tuesday diside i need to choose between the guy i'm in love with and my best friends.
i tell them i can't choose so they leave me.
i'm left with no one.
there used to be a time where i could just sit all alone in my room in the dark....
I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING DO THAT ANYMORE!!!!!!
maybe i will kill myself. not like theres anything important to do tomorrow