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Yes tis quite early in the morning, not the usual time for a journal entry but one shall defy the laws of physics this once … well not really.
He rang last night ^_^ oh how well I slept!!! It reminded me of old times. Which made me think, why did it end? Because I was stupid and asked for it to end. I mean, I just have the worst sense of timing don’t I? It me who even started the question of “what’s happening between us” before the HSC. Now that the HSC is over and I get to recover, I end it. I’m almost as bad as him! Horrible sense of timing. See if I hadn’t ended it I would have fully recovered, happy once more and he would like me once more. Ergh, I could slap myself!!!
Anyway, it’s too late now. *Sigh* I’m seeing him this Saturday and the plan has fallen apart - as expected. I’m running out of money because I wasted so much money on my phone and I had so many plans and things I wanted to get. There’s also mother’s birthday coming up and I must also save up for Christmas pressies (yes I abhor Christmas but I feel bad when I get loads of presents and I give none). Oh why does the universe hate me so! *Shakes fist* the original plan was to use my next $80 for the hotel at Manly but would leave me hardly enough for train tickets for the next two and half weeks.
I want those shoes!!! And my finger piercing!!! And more art supplies!!! And at least one movie!!! And those books!!!
I was going to give it up for the night at Manly, but then I realized that there was no point, it won’t mean anything to him. So therefore I propose a simple day out, maybe to the beloved MCA. Thing is, I miss the guy so much my sternum hurts. I think I’ll have to tie myself up so I don’t smother him with hugs and such things.
Ergh the irony, now that I’ve finished the HSC and have ample time, I can’t spend it with him, not like before anyway. Oh and I find out my UAI on the 16th of December. Knowing my luck, do you want a bet that we’d start getting closer just before I get it and when I do it’ll horrid and I’ll get emo therefore he’ll dislike me again? Just my luck I guess, I swear I didn’t break any mirrors.
Anyways I’ll not torture myself by thinking; unfortunately I’ve finished my last book so that won’t be easy. But Jez-Fly will be lending me another book so YAY! Hmm I shall have to go to my counselor today *shudder*
Oh a happier note, my recent painting on DA has 8 favs *falls off chair* and I’m being watched by 41 people. Oh I feel like a fairy!!! WHEEEEEEE!!!!
I have new photos from the formal. I look rather bad in all of them because I was upset and was forced to smile by the people taking photos - the end result looked like a grimace resulting from bad indigestion.
So yes, a photo of Fiona and I, she is in my biology class and is such a sweetie ^_^ isn’t she gorgeous?
He rang last night ^_^ oh how well I slept!!! It reminded me of old times. Which made me think, why did it end? Because I was stupid and asked for it to end. I mean, I just have the worst sense of timing don’t I? It me who even started the question of “what’s happening between us” before the HSC. Now that the HSC is over and I get to recover, I end it. I’m almost as bad as him! Horrible sense of timing. See if I hadn’t ended it I would have fully recovered, happy once more and he would like me once more. Ergh, I could slap myself!!!
Anyway, it’s too late now. *Sigh* I’m seeing him this Saturday and the plan has fallen apart - as expected. I’m running out of money because I wasted so much money on my phone and I had so many plans and things I wanted to get. There’s also mother’s birthday coming up and I must also save up for Christmas pressies (yes I abhor Christmas but I feel bad when I get loads of presents and I give none). Oh why does the universe hate me so! *Shakes fist* the original plan was to use my next $80 for the hotel at Manly but would leave me hardly enough for train tickets for the next two and half weeks.
I want those shoes!!! And my finger piercing!!! And more art supplies!!! And at least one movie!!! And those books!!!
I was going to give it up for the night at Manly, but then I realized that there was no point, it won’t mean anything to him. So therefore I propose a simple day out, maybe to the beloved MCA. Thing is, I miss the guy so much my sternum hurts. I think I’ll have to tie myself up so I don’t smother him with hugs and such things.
Ergh the irony, now that I’ve finished the HSC and have ample time, I can’t spend it with him, not like before anyway. Oh and I find out my UAI on the 16th of December. Knowing my luck, do you want a bet that we’d start getting closer just before I get it and when I do it’ll horrid and I’ll get emo therefore he’ll dislike me again? Just my luck I guess, I swear I didn’t break any mirrors.
Anyways I’ll not torture myself by thinking; unfortunately I’ve finished my last book so that won’t be easy. But Jez-Fly will be lending me another book so YAY! Hmm I shall have to go to my counselor today *shudder*
Oh a happier note, my recent painting on DA has 8 favs *falls off chair* and I’m being watched by 41 people. Oh I feel like a fairy!!! WHEEEEEEE!!!!
I have new photos from the formal. I look rather bad in all of them because I was upset and was forced to smile by the people taking photos - the end result looked like a grimace resulting from bad indigestion.
So yes, a photo of Fiona and I, she is in my biology class and is such a sweetie ^_^ isn’t she gorgeous?