The night's events
Tonight sucked. Really, it sucked. I had a nice time hanging out with James and it was good to talk to him, but when I got home I knew I was in deep shit. My sister was here, and last night at midnight my mom and sister were battling it out on the phone about random crap. Basically my mom is supporting my sister in all financial ways, and now my sister is taking a bum friend and letting him live with her, and my mom is sick of it. My mom hates supporting my sister who has 2 kids and no job and isn't 18 yet, but she is not going to stand parying for her lazy jobless friend's rent as well. So my mom said "Get the utilities in someone else's name and give me my car back then I will be happy to stay outta your business." So my sister came by to get her shit, because she freaked out about the car (she's immature, why else would she be in that situation?) and wanted to make my mom regret it by not letting her see her grand-kids. My sister started throwing stuff and knocked breakable shit down (she broke a glass swan sculpture that I bought my mom for Christmas) so my mom told her to leave, and she said no. My mom then called the police, which pissed my sister off even more. So I was standing behind my mom when she was on the phone and my sister was right in her face as my mom said "Can you please send the police?". I yelled to the phone "Hurry!" because in my 15 years, I've seen shit get ugly between those 2, even right in front of my sister's newborn. When I said "hurry" my sister looked at me and said "If I get my kids taken away because of that I'm going to come back here and kill you." That pissed me off so badly, I just wanted to rip her fucking face off for all the shit she's put me through. All of the daily beatings with tennis rackets and other flying objects... keeping me awake purposely with her loud music or shaking an advil bottle... pulling my hair out in chunks, calling me a fat bitch, telling me I'm ugly and stupid, kicking me, threatening to kill me numerous times, making me stay against my door for hours at a time so she couldn't get in and hurt me, trying to knock my door down several times, holding me under water until my cousin got her off of me.... those were NEVER normal sisterly arguements. Those were BEATINGS that came from somebody who has never been fully well in the brain. Tonight when she threatened to kill me, I just lost it in my head. I broke down in tears because I know I will never be free of her. Even though she doesn't live at my house anymore, she comes over whenever the fuck she pleases and fucks everything up. I love my nephews, but if I had to choose between seeing all of them or none of them, I would choose none of them because I can't put up with her shit anymore. She is everything about this world that I hate. She is pure evil and I would do ANYTHING to get her out of my life and out of my mother's.