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Electronic Lover II
By Jasmine Johnson
-----Original Message-----
From: Me
Sent: Monday,September 13, 2004 5:03 PM
To: You
Subject: Letter
*soft eyes cast down beneath a veil of dark hair* Been a little while since I've written, guess things have been crazy....there are nights when I stop and look up and wonder what you are thinking about right then....but I tear my gaze away and come back to the now, it would hurt to much to keep wondering.....a few days have gone by and your voice, your face, your form has finaly began to wane from my dreams....the heaviniess in my chest if letting up as well, it feels funny to breath again......*shrugs* pain still lingers at times but it is all melting away, all leaving me....leaving me......whole again......*closes watering eyes, blinks a little* I am still yours though, I just have accepted what must be.....I'm sorry for the drop in my nurturing persona, but it is difficult to let my guard down right now.....I know you feel it and hear it when we talk.....I'm afraid if I let it down I might be too close again, I might fall just that little bit more....*winces at the thought* I dont think I can do that for a time....the impact is a bitch......*swallowing hard and taking a deep breath* just talking to you makes my heart race, I wonder what seeing you in person will do....kill me.....no it wont but it will be ecstasy and agony in one blow.....I'll still want to kiss you but I can't......I'll still want to have your arms around me but that is just silly....it can't be that way again.....*whispers more to self* but I'm still yours.....why.....when will I take that part of me back.....*covering face raven hair sheilding my face* like removing the collar but never leaving your master....I just want to be set free.....*wipes eyes and looks up trying to smile* perhaps I already am.....
With love always,
me
By Jasmine Johnson
-----Original Message-----
From: Me
Sent: Monday,September 13, 2004 5:03 PM
To: You
Subject: Letter
*soft eyes cast down beneath a veil of dark hair* Been a little while since I've written, guess things have been crazy....there are nights when I stop and look up and wonder what you are thinking about right then....but I tear my gaze away and come back to the now, it would hurt to much to keep wondering.....a few days have gone by and your voice, your face, your form has finaly began to wane from my dreams....the heaviniess in my chest if letting up as well, it feels funny to breath again......*shrugs* pain still lingers at times but it is all melting away, all leaving me....leaving me......whole again......*closes watering eyes, blinks a little* I am still yours though, I just have accepted what must be.....I'm sorry for the drop in my nurturing persona, but it is difficult to let my guard down right now.....I know you feel it and hear it when we talk.....I'm afraid if I let it down I might be too close again, I might fall just that little bit more....*winces at the thought* I dont think I can do that for a time....the impact is a bitch......*swallowing hard and taking a deep breath* just talking to you makes my heart race, I wonder what seeing you in person will do....kill me.....no it wont but it will be ecstasy and agony in one blow.....I'll still want to kiss you but I can't......I'll still want to have your arms around me but that is just silly....it can't be that way again.....*whispers more to self* but I'm still yours.....why.....when will I take that part of me back.....*covering face raven hair sheilding my face* like removing the collar but never leaving your master....I just want to be set free.....*wipes eyes and looks up trying to smile* perhaps I already am.....
With love always,
me