When the Oceans Turn to Dust You'll Realize What You've Done to Me...
Okay so today it hit me that I'm most likely not going to college. I havent heard back from the school that I'm being forced to go to if i'm accepted and they recieved my application in fucking febuary. Everytime I talk to my parents they argue with me about college and all that shit that I really see no purpose in talking to them at all. We can't afford the college I got accepted to even though my mom said that I can go to any school i want and i dont have to listen to my father when he says no. But now that her and my father are back on cool grounds and not fighting I'm the asshole, so everything is my fault and i'm the one who should be shuned and ignored. yes apparently i'm the bitch because they got in a fight.
I'm tired of being stuck in the middle and being screamed at and called fat and called nothing and everything else my mom can think of when she's all pissy because of my father. Honeslty I dont give a fuck about them anymore. they promised me back in september that everything would change and they would work things out but we all had to make some adjustments with ourselves. Well I fucking adjusted but those two assholes didn't and I'm the bad guy???? Honeslty grow the fuck up!!!! I'm tired of being pushed around and carrying this fuckin burden on my back, I'm not going to college? thats fucking fine but If they think Im staying here with them when I graduate they are sooo fucking wrong its not funny, I'd rather burn in Hell then stay here. If I never have to see them again thats fine with me, their fuckin loss, I have no problem with dissapearing in a few months when I graduate and never seeing anybody here again.
I'm tired of being stuck in the middle and being screamed at and called fat and called nothing and everything else my mom can think of when she's all pissy because of my father. Honeslty I dont give a fuck about them anymore. they promised me back in september that everything would change and they would work things out but we all had to make some adjustments with ourselves. Well I fucking adjusted but those two assholes didn't and I'm the bad guy???? Honeslty grow the fuck up!!!! I'm tired of being pushed around and carrying this fuckin burden on my back, I'm not going to college? thats fucking fine but If they think Im staying here with them when I graduate they are sooo fucking wrong its not funny, I'd rather burn in Hell then stay here. If I never have to see them again thats fine with me, their fuckin loss, I have no problem with dissapearing in a few months when I graduate and never seeing anybody here again.