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so basically when i thought everything was going good. it turns back around and goes bad. i honestly do not know if i should even try anymore.
i always find a guy and end up liking them --> they like me. then i stop liking them because i was scared of being attached and i played too many games and led them on. well karma came back around. i met the most perfect guy and everything was amazing. i was so happy. i don't think i ever been this happy. friends told me this is the happiest they've seen me since my mom passed away. he made me feel like everything was great and i actually wanted to live. yeah amazing what another human can do to another.. in especially a short period of time. well now it's all over. the whole happiness feeling has be ripped out and stepped on. i feel like i was used, lied to, and whatnot. maybe its for the better? maybe i wasn't ready? maybe i'm just too dumb.
don't tell me theirs other guys out there. thats what everyone says. don't ask me if im ohkay. because obviously i am not. kay?!
there is nothing no one can do or say to cheer me up right now.
it's amazing how the one person who makes you cry is the only one who can make you smile.
it's better for me to be left alone.
on the brightside, i am seeing him today. i am hoping he will see how much he means to me.
<3
"you had me crawling so bad, you had me heels over head. you had me easy, you had me easy. now its too late to go back to realize what we had --> we were already beautiful"
i always find a guy and end up liking them --> they like me. then i stop liking them because i was scared of being attached and i played too many games and led them on. well karma came back around. i met the most perfect guy and everything was amazing. i was so happy. i don't think i ever been this happy. friends told me this is the happiest they've seen me since my mom passed away. he made me feel like everything was great and i actually wanted to live. yeah amazing what another human can do to another.. in especially a short period of time. well now it's all over. the whole happiness feeling has be ripped out and stepped on. i feel like i was used, lied to, and whatnot. maybe its for the better? maybe i wasn't ready? maybe i'm just too dumb.
don't tell me theirs other guys out there. thats what everyone says. don't ask me if im ohkay. because obviously i am not. kay?!
there is nothing no one can do or say to cheer me up right now.
it's amazing how the one person who makes you cry is the only one who can make you smile.
it's better for me to be left alone.
on the brightside, i am seeing him today. i am hoping he will see how much he means to me.
<3
"you had me crawling so bad, you had me heels over head. you had me easy, you had me easy. now its too late to go back to realize what we had --> we were already beautiful"