to my ninas

[bloody_sabotage]

look i am sorry ninas, as i reflect on my actions, i did not handle it like an adult and i apologize, and i realize that i do that a lot. it is time to change and has been for a while. i was in some way provoked to act like i did, but i should be bigger than that and will try, for myself i will try, for the best for us i will try, wait no i will do, not just try, but i will do. it is time to grow up i am almost an adult by the standard age thingy. now what i told you is how i felt and still do feel, i just think i could of handled it differently.

love you deeply,
eric.