I needed some where to hang my head....
.... Without your noose....
SSsooo! I just thought that I would FINALLY update... I just haven't been much in the "typing" mood. I went to see Javonda yesterday. She said she was proud that I have gotten some better "coping skills" then hurting myself. The notebook thing has worked very well. I seen Dr. Chock today... Insurance still hasn't came through to cover my sleep medicine so I haven't slept.... At all! I mean nothing... I just don't sleep. Just that simple... It sucks. On top of all that... I'M GETTING FAT! Oh yeah... Also there has been trouble in paradise. Me and you know who are having a little trouble... Nothing I wasn't expecting. I know it's not going to be what he told me it was but WHATEVER! I need sleep! I start the fall semster at T.C.C. on August 29th... Criminology. It should be great. I love Foo Fighters.... I found my love for them AGAIN! I'm going to try and lay down and go to sleep now... Wish me fucking luck!
Good book.... Crank by Ellen Hopkins. Everyone should really ceck it out.
"No Time Like That First Time
Fire!
Your nose ignites,
flameless kerosene
(and, some say, Drano)
laced with ephedrine
you want to cry
powered demonsbite
through cartilage and sinuses,
take dead aim at your
brain, jump inside
want to scream
troops of tapping feet
fall into rhythm,
marking time, right
between your eyes
get the urge to dance
louder, louder, ultra
gray-matter power,
shock waves of energy
mushroom inside your head
you want to let go
detonate,
annihilate barriers,
bring down the walls,
unleashing floodwaters,
freeing long-captive dreams
to ride the current
through
arteries and capillariers,
pulsing, rushing,
raging torrents
pounding against your heart
sweeping you away."
That is her description of her daugthers first time using the drug crank. The depressing thing is, is that I know that feeling.... I used for abot six months... The really uplifting thing is... I know the feeling, I tried it, boy was it fucking stupid.... I grew up and realized that drugs are FUCKING STUPID! But hey you make mistakes and you learn that you are either meant to be a loser drugie (no offense) or you know that you are better. That you have more to offer. I found that about myself. I can say this book made me pretty fucking proud. This girl on the other hand wasn't so lucky... Okay... I need sleepy!
SSsooo! I just thought that I would FINALLY update... I just haven't been much in the "typing" mood. I went to see Javonda yesterday. She said she was proud that I have gotten some better "coping skills" then hurting myself. The notebook thing has worked very well. I seen Dr. Chock today... Insurance still hasn't came through to cover my sleep medicine so I haven't slept.... At all! I mean nothing... I just don't sleep. Just that simple... It sucks. On top of all that... I'M GETTING FAT! Oh yeah... Also there has been trouble in paradise. Me and you know who are having a little trouble... Nothing I wasn't expecting. I know it's not going to be what he told me it was but WHATEVER! I need sleep! I start the fall semster at T.C.C. on August 29th... Criminology. It should be great. I love Foo Fighters.... I found my love for them AGAIN! I'm going to try and lay down and go to sleep now... Wish me fucking luck!
Good book.... Crank by Ellen Hopkins. Everyone should really ceck it out.
"No Time Like That First Time
Fire!
Your nose ignites,
flameless kerosene
(and, some say, Drano)
laced with ephedrine
you want to cry
powered demonsbite
through cartilage and sinuses,
take dead aim at your
brain, jump inside
want to scream
troops of tapping feet
fall into rhythm,
marking time, right
between your eyes
get the urge to dance
louder, louder, ultra
gray-matter power,
shock waves of energy
mushroom inside your head
you want to let go
detonate,
annihilate barriers,
bring down the walls,
unleashing floodwaters,
freeing long-captive dreams
to ride the current
through
arteries and capillariers,
pulsing, rushing,
raging torrents
pounding against your heart
sweeping you away."
That is her description of her daugthers first time using the drug crank. The depressing thing is, is that I know that feeling.... I used for abot six months... The really uplifting thing is... I know the feeling, I tried it, boy was it fucking stupid.... I grew up and realized that drugs are FUCKING STUPID! But hey you make mistakes and you learn that you are either meant to be a loser drugie (no offense) or you know that you are better. That you have more to offer. I found that about myself. I can say this book made me pretty fucking proud. This girl on the other hand wasn't so lucky... Okay... I need sleepy!