"Do you feel the way we hate? Do you hate the way we feel?"...
I've been freaking out, hardcore.
This terrible feeling's taking over... well, I wouldn't call it terrible, but it's disconcerting, in a way.
And then there's all the other details to the rest of the thoughts and feelings I'm having.
Sometimes I wonder what the consequences would have been had I NOT stopped my meds.
Whatever. For me, it's not worth living a medicated life. I'd rather be wild and crazy, violent and dangerous than chained living in a permanent chemically induced docile mood all the time. It's kind of like those poor wolves you see in the zoo over here - Wolves are gorgeous, magnificent, fascinating and proud creatures. Here? The cold and inability to travel as they should causes them to have painful arthritis and what I would personally see as a generally miserable life for something so wild and wonderful. I kind of feel that way for all the zoo animals, though.
On the topic of Zoos - Seriously, how fascinating is it REALLY to see a bunch of animals in cages and pens? Honestly? I would, however, like to go in and draw them or photograph them. It would most likely depress me, though...
I bought some black Henna today. It makes me decently happy since the copper or mahogany colors are the only two you ALWAYS come across. Black is hard-ish to find.
A random PS: My Lucian Icon on this post? All that blood... Him... Seriously turns me on!
Quote: "Life is like a movie, if you've sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn't gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early." - Doug Stanhope.
♥
This terrible feeling's taking over... well, I wouldn't call it terrible, but it's disconcerting, in a way.
And then there's all the other details to the rest of the thoughts and feelings I'm having.
Sometimes I wonder what the consequences would have been had I NOT stopped my meds.
Whatever. For me, it's not worth living a medicated life. I'd rather be wild and crazy, violent and dangerous than chained living in a permanent chemically induced docile mood all the time. It's kind of like those poor wolves you see in the zoo over here - Wolves are gorgeous, magnificent, fascinating and proud creatures. Here? The cold and inability to travel as they should causes them to have painful arthritis and what I would personally see as a generally miserable life for something so wild and wonderful. I kind of feel that way for all the zoo animals, though.
On the topic of Zoos - Seriously, how fascinating is it REALLY to see a bunch of animals in cages and pens? Honestly? I would, however, like to go in and draw them or photograph them. It would most likely depress me, though...
I bought some black Henna today. It makes me decently happy since the copper or mahogany colors are the only two you ALWAYS come across. Black is hard-ish to find.
A random PS: My Lucian Icon on this post? All that blood... Him... Seriously turns me on!
Quote: "Life is like a movie, if you've sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn't gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early." - Doug Stanhope.
♥