"Some say, that someday, better things will come our way..."
Zach's birthday is coming up, this Thursday.
I have to go talk to Mr. Witt, the choir teacher and see if I can get him to go into one of Zach's classes and sing "Happy Birthday" and I'll buy him a cupcake or something... I SHOULD SEND MY TIARA DOWN THERE SO HE CAN WEAR IT ALL DAY! That's an awesome idea... I just don't want it to get broken by any chance... I'll give him a card and threaten him not to break it.
I want to do the same thing for some other friends. =) I know Zach will secretly love the embarassment and attention.
I rode Galaxy some today. She was being so good for like... the first three days, now she's being a bitch. I just hate how she hates to work and how pissy she gets. I'm really worried about getting thrown off, I mean, I never have and I know eventually her getting pissy will be fun, like it always does - I just hate having to deal with this EVERY fucking time I start riding her again. I mean, it's getting so old. I've had her eight years, and this is what it's like every spring/summer. It's just driving me crazy. I want to save up so I can send her to Tammy's so she can work with her and get her diciplined. I mean, she's a smart horse, and a pretty good horse - she's just lacking in dicipline. She know show to do it all, she just doesn't want to and feels like she can get out of it because she's been able to already. It's a habbit I'm tired of breaking every year, so I want it drilled in by a Pro'.
I don't want to get rid of her or anything, really, I'm just tired of this. I had that accident on her, and I know it was a while ago, but it's difficult to get over. And a lot of trainers and riders have told me that. I don't live in fear, I'm just cautious. And it doesn't help that I have a realistic pessimistic personality. I think of the worst reality of a situation, or possability. Like, if she were to throw me (but it's unlikily, quite a bit so) I could hit a pannel - what if I break my leg? or my back? What if I can't ride ever again? What if she steps on me and kills me, or cripples me? What about all the expenses? What if I get dragged? What if something happens to HEATHER? That'd be the worst. If anything ever happened to her that really hurt her (I mean, she's gonna get hurt sooner or later living at my ranch, it happens, and it's good for you... I mean - it's a RANCH) but if it was really bad, and basically my fault I'd feel awful. I highly doubt, way more then even myself getting thrown or anything, that Heather would. She might fall, but Galaxy's not spooky, if someone fell off she'd probably just walk to the gate and want out (Because she's a lazy bitch), or she'd stand there. She wouldn't freak out or anything. And I KNOW this, I'm just nervous. I'm well aware how powerful animals are, especially horses. Seriously, though, how dumb is all this? I've ridden bulls and this is hard? Well, bulls are worse and better, in different aspects... Talk about that later, I guess.
I'm just tired of dealing with this. I hate having to put SO MUCH effort, a REPEATED effort none-the-less, every single time. Does that make sense?
Blah... Galaxy, Galaxy... I love you, but sometimes... >.<
I'm working Symmetry again, I hope to get to the closest show I can, I won't make this one, obviously, but maybe in a month or two.
I talked to my mom about Pebbles and Comet, and she's going to try and help me talk to my dad about it. I think I'll get them. =) I'm pretty excited.
I have some other horse stuff to ramble about, but I should probably try and sleep.
Got some Oxi... pretty satisfied. =) I know that sounds sad, but I have no addiction. I know every can say that, but I'm pretty good about admitting things. I don't take it all the time, I don't crave it, etc. Surprisingly enough: I'm not an idiot. Don't any of me worry about me, you guys. =) I know some of you do, and it flatters me and makes me feel good and all, but it's all good. =)
Santiago, I thought about you the other day. =P
Love, Contentment, and clear skies!
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I have to go talk to Mr. Witt, the choir teacher and see if I can get him to go into one of Zach's classes and sing "Happy Birthday" and I'll buy him a cupcake or something... I SHOULD SEND MY TIARA DOWN THERE SO HE CAN WEAR IT ALL DAY! That's an awesome idea... I just don't want it to get broken by any chance... I'll give him a card and threaten him not to break it.
I want to do the same thing for some other friends. =) I know Zach will secretly love the embarassment and attention.
I rode Galaxy some today. She was being so good for like... the first three days, now she's being a bitch. I just hate how she hates to work and how pissy she gets. I'm really worried about getting thrown off, I mean, I never have and I know eventually her getting pissy will be fun, like it always does - I just hate having to deal with this EVERY fucking time I start riding her again. I mean, it's getting so old. I've had her eight years, and this is what it's like every spring/summer. It's just driving me crazy. I want to save up so I can send her to Tammy's so she can work with her and get her diciplined. I mean, she's a smart horse, and a pretty good horse - she's just lacking in dicipline. She know show to do it all, she just doesn't want to and feels like she can get out of it because she's been able to already. It's a habbit I'm tired of breaking every year, so I want it drilled in by a Pro'.
I don't want to get rid of her or anything, really, I'm just tired of this. I had that accident on her, and I know it was a while ago, but it's difficult to get over. And a lot of trainers and riders have told me that. I don't live in fear, I'm just cautious. And it doesn't help that I have a realistic pessimistic personality. I think of the worst reality of a situation, or possability. Like, if she were to throw me (but it's unlikily, quite a bit so) I could hit a pannel - what if I break my leg? or my back? What if I can't ride ever again? What if she steps on me and kills me, or cripples me? What about all the expenses? What if I get dragged? What if something happens to HEATHER? That'd be the worst. If anything ever happened to her that really hurt her (I mean, she's gonna get hurt sooner or later living at my ranch, it happens, and it's good for you... I mean - it's a RANCH) but if it was really bad, and basically my fault I'd feel awful. I highly doubt, way more then even myself getting thrown or anything, that Heather would. She might fall, but Galaxy's not spooky, if someone fell off she'd probably just walk to the gate and want out (Because she's a lazy bitch), or she'd stand there. She wouldn't freak out or anything. And I KNOW this, I'm just nervous. I'm well aware how powerful animals are, especially horses. Seriously, though, how dumb is all this? I've ridden bulls and this is hard? Well, bulls are worse and better, in different aspects... Talk about that later, I guess.
I'm just tired of dealing with this. I hate having to put SO MUCH effort, a REPEATED effort none-the-less, every single time. Does that make sense?
Blah... Galaxy, Galaxy... I love you, but sometimes... >.<
I'm working Symmetry again, I hope to get to the closest show I can, I won't make this one, obviously, but maybe in a month or two.
I talked to my mom about Pebbles and Comet, and she's going to try and help me talk to my dad about it. I think I'll get them. =) I'm pretty excited.
I have some other horse stuff to ramble about, but I should probably try and sleep.
Got some Oxi... pretty satisfied. =) I know that sounds sad, but I have no addiction. I know every can say that, but I'm pretty good about admitting things. I don't take it all the time, I don't crave it, etc. Surprisingly enough: I'm not an idiot. Don't any of me worry about me, you guys. =) I know some of you do, and it flatters me and makes me feel good and all, but it's all good. =)
Santiago, I thought about you the other day. =P
Love, Contentment, and clear skies!
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