3:49AM
I don't know why I decided to write here. I don't really know if anyone ever checks it anymore and frankly I would be fine if no one really did. I just needed a place to put down some stuff that needs to be put out. I am feeling low right now I haven't really ever felt this way and I don't like it. I'm not depressed but I just feel . . . . weird. I know what I want but it seems like I can't have it right now. The one thing that was certain seems to have been taken away and I have to let it happen. There is nothing I can really do to stop it and when it happens it will not be a fun day. I seem to be losing touch with the things that I felt were important for me and finding that in a way, I can't control everything in my life. I want to but it's impossible. I'm not going into detail but the more I think about it the more I dread it. I need to just leave it alone for at least the next few days so that I can focus on my studies. Hahaha right studies. It's 3:49 I have a paper due at 6 PM and I can't concentrate on it long enough to put it together. I have too many things on my mind. Maybe I can get a couple of pages written before I go to be. If you want to know more you know how to find me. If you don't care . . . don't worry about it it's not too bad, and if you don't read this you may wonder later but then again you won't really know will you. Well back to my paper.