soooo
I've come to the conclusion i dig this girl.
and its weird.
shes somebody i can talk to and joke with and learn from.
and i totally dig that.
and the fact she likes goood music makes it better.
and i still get nervous around her.
its a good thing she lives a good distance away or id be sunk.
in other news.
i need a job, its pretty ridiculous how bad it is right now.
ive never gone this long with no income.
i mean ive been working every since i was 16. and i mean coaching was cool.
contract was cool.
but the last job were i got a paycheck every 2 weeks was BCBG, back in the year 04.
i need some sort of consistency,
so ive lowered my standards and looking for bitch work, retail or what have you.
i don't know, its is a very uncomfortable feeling.
it makes me feel like a low life and like i fucked up somewhere to get this.
maybe its karma, maybe i deserve this. but i just hope something comes through soon.
its very discouraging.
and its weird.
shes somebody i can talk to and joke with and learn from.
and i totally dig that.
and the fact she likes goood music makes it better.
and i still get nervous around her.
its a good thing she lives a good distance away or id be sunk.
in other news.
i need a job, its pretty ridiculous how bad it is right now.
ive never gone this long with no income.
i mean ive been working every since i was 16. and i mean coaching was cool.
contract was cool.
but the last job were i got a paycheck every 2 weeks was BCBG, back in the year 04.
i need some sort of consistency,
so ive lowered my standards and looking for bitch work, retail or what have you.
i don't know, its is a very uncomfortable feeling.
it makes me feel like a low life and like i fucked up somewhere to get this.
maybe its karma, maybe i deserve this. but i just hope something comes through soon.
its very discouraging.