Somethings is seriously wrong here...
Im taking my pills and i think something is working.. i mean im still very depressed but i dont have that over powering urge to cut. I am suicidal. I want something to look forward too... and obviously looking foward to andrew isnt enough...
I miss anthony. I miss him so much. I know he's my ex and all but i miss talking to him so badly. He always knew exsaclty what to say to make me smile when i was seriously so down. It seemed like he was put there for that reason. I still love him so much. But what can i do? were not together.. and we never will be. I think maybe its best that way, but it hurts to know that i never got the chance to see what our union would make. Im just so fucking alone. Or maybe im not alone but i feel so alone. Its not right. I just want an awnser thats all
Believe it or not i just want to cut so bad right now but i wont. I fucking hate this.. i just want to sock a wall. Well i better go...
~Audri