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ok so i need a little help i know this is dumb and well you all know how much i like asking for help...not, but anyways im askin for it. so here it is about 3 months ago i fell in love with "the man of my dreams" lol yeah right so anyways here i am in love and about a month later a good friend, lets call him jon oh wait no real names oh well, who i have liked before walks back into my life and deciede to well confess his love for me in a way and at that moment i wanted nothing more then to be with him. well i realized i had a boyfriend and well i couldnt really do this so i decided to play it cool and stay with my b/f and keep jon as a side project sort of a secret lover (my dirty little secret)anyway yeah obviously my b/f started wondering why i was ditching him and lying to him so i could hang out with jon and friends anyways i fucked myself over and now i dont know who i want jon will treat me like shit because thats how he is and my b/f would rather take me out to dinner and watch movies and after 3 months that gets boring and he doesnt want to go and do anything else but now my b/f is suspicious and i think he knows about jon and jon just said we should stop because he loves me too much he doesnt want to see me get treat like shit and ahhhhhh im just done with it all i want to be married and not have to worry about this shit anymore!!!!!!! anyways if anybody has any advise please please please tell me im dazed and confused