im missing you...
im always thinking about the past. its not a good thing, cuz i hate my past. i lost a lot, and gained little. ~except for advice, pain, and many experiences that i will never forget~ but besides that, i lost a lot for nothing. i lost all my friends, my good friends that i used to have. i lost them because of my own selfishness. i used to be self-centered, like everything rotated around me... at least, i think i was, so ive heard.
your asshole.
What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
but ive changed since then, and im still trying to not be like that. anyway, i have so many regrets in life, but right now im thinking of the friends i lost, and the friends i could have had. my best friend in all the world, was logan. i never realized how great he was until i lost him. he meant a lot to me, and i will never forget him. he was truely my best friend, back in the day. until one night when i went off on him because of my own problems. since then he hasnt spoken a word to me, i doesnt plan to. ive tried soo hard to get back in good with him, and tell him how sorry i am, and how i would do anything for him to forgive me. but he doesnt listen, and i dont blame him. maybe he hears me, but he doesnt give a shit anymore. and i cant do shit about it. but i miss him a lot and would do anything for him. another ex friend of mine that i miss sooo much, is geneva. she too was a best friend of mine since 1st grade. and i gave that all up for some boy. im so selfish. i hate what i did, i hate that i lost them. i only regret losing a few of my friends, her being one, and logan being the other. these were the 2 that were always there for me, ..and i was never there for them. that caused the loss of contact. and i wish i could show them that ive changed, and that i can be a better friend. but theres no possible way anymore. i miss geneva a lot. she was my best friend for a long time, and she even lives across the street from me, yet i havent spoken fac-to-face with her in soo long. i wish she would forgive me, but i dont know what i can do anymore. i dont really think they will ever want to be friends with me again because of who am i now. i am different. i have a lot of problems, that maybe they just dont want to deal with it. i dont know. but whatever it is, i dont know how to change it. maybe if proved to them and gain their forgiveness i would become a bit more happier? i dont know if this is possible though. surely not from logan. some nights i stay up crying, longing for the friends that i had once had, and lost.
i miss my elizabeth too. i dont think it ended badly between us, not to my knowledge at least. but we had been growing apart through out the years while being at different schools. at least last year we would still acknowledge eachother with a "hi". this year its not even a glance. its kinda sad. she was my very, very, very best friend ever since the first grade. we were inseparable. she was my sister! we were connected by the hip practically. but now thats the past. i miss her a lot. i wish i could just talk to her, or hug her or something. i dont know. but shes now a "prep" i know i shouldnt judge or anything...but i dont think that she would be able to relate with me at all... or maybe she would. i wish i could somehow connect with her again or something.
so yeah. those are my three "ex best friends" who i had loved so dearly, and lost. i miss them. and now we're not friends at all, i had gone my separate ways. now, im off to college in a couple of months, leaving them behind, once again. im gonna miss them even more. i look at all of my old pictures of us and want to cry. but i cant do anything about it anymore. ive tried as hard as i could. all i can do now is hope for them to forgive me i guess. until then im on my own, missing them more than ever.
You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.
What feeling do you represent?
brought to you by Quizilla
Sullivan Misery: i spent the night at grant and logans smarts house last night and u didnt ooooooooohhhhh
lilmissvixen420: thats cool
Sullivan Misery: yea
lilmissvixen420: i miss that kid
Sullivan Misery: he says u are stupid
lilmissvixen420: im sure hes says a lot more than that
lilmissvixen420: wow yall have something in common
PAULA COLE~~THROWING STONES
So call me a bitch in heat and
I'll call you a liar
And we'll throw stones until we're dead
There you go again you cut me off from talking
You bask in the glory
The center of the circle
All your friends think you are a comedian
So kind and generous
but i am suffering
Away from here
I wanna be
Away from here
Away from here
Away from every little thing
Every little thing
I used to love your every little, every little thing
Now you call me a bitch in heat and
I call you a liar
And we'll throw stones until we're dead
Your arms beneath me
Your lying inside me
I used to love your every little every little thing
Your eyes blue stars
Your hand in my purse
And now I hate your every little everything all day
My inner vision, dulled and darkened
I keep myself away to you
I fuck my sorrow humblely
And throw my crown upon the ground
It's you I hope for
And us I pray for
And me that I believed was wrong
But now my anger is my best friend
Be careful may bite your head off
So call me a bitch in heat and
I'll you a motherfucker
And we'll throw stones until we're dead
your asshole.
What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
but ive changed since then, and im still trying to not be like that. anyway, i have so many regrets in life, but right now im thinking of the friends i lost, and the friends i could have had. my best friend in all the world, was logan. i never realized how great he was until i lost him. he meant a lot to me, and i will never forget him. he was truely my best friend, back in the day. until one night when i went off on him because of my own problems. since then he hasnt spoken a word to me, i doesnt plan to. ive tried soo hard to get back in good with him, and tell him how sorry i am, and how i would do anything for him to forgive me. but he doesnt listen, and i dont blame him. maybe he hears me, but he doesnt give a shit anymore. and i cant do shit about it. but i miss him a lot and would do anything for him. another ex friend of mine that i miss sooo much, is geneva. she too was a best friend of mine since 1st grade. and i gave that all up for some boy. im so selfish. i hate what i did, i hate that i lost them. i only regret losing a few of my friends, her being one, and logan being the other. these were the 2 that were always there for me, ..and i was never there for them. that caused the loss of contact. and i wish i could show them that ive changed, and that i can be a better friend. but theres no possible way anymore. i miss geneva a lot. she was my best friend for a long time, and she even lives across the street from me, yet i havent spoken fac-to-face with her in soo long. i wish she would forgive me, but i dont know what i can do anymore. i dont really think they will ever want to be friends with me again because of who am i now. i am different. i have a lot of problems, that maybe they just dont want to deal with it. i dont know. but whatever it is, i dont know how to change it. maybe if proved to them and gain their forgiveness i would become a bit more happier? i dont know if this is possible though. surely not from logan. some nights i stay up crying, longing for the friends that i had once had, and lost.
i miss my elizabeth too. i dont think it ended badly between us, not to my knowledge at least. but we had been growing apart through out the years while being at different schools. at least last year we would still acknowledge eachother with a "hi". this year its not even a glance. its kinda sad. she was my very, very, very best friend ever since the first grade. we were inseparable. she was my sister! we were connected by the hip practically. but now thats the past. i miss her a lot. i wish i could just talk to her, or hug her or something. i dont know. but shes now a "prep" i know i shouldnt judge or anything...but i dont think that she would be able to relate with me at all... or maybe she would. i wish i could somehow connect with her again or something.
so yeah. those are my three "ex best friends" who i had loved so dearly, and lost. i miss them. and now we're not friends at all, i had gone my separate ways. now, im off to college in a couple of months, leaving them behind, once again. im gonna miss them even more. i look at all of my old pictures of us and want to cry. but i cant do anything about it anymore. ive tried as hard as i could. all i can do now is hope for them to forgive me i guess. until then im on my own, missing them more than ever.
You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.
What feeling do you represent?
brought to you by Quizilla
Sullivan Misery: i spent the night at grant and logans smarts house last night and u didnt ooooooooohhhhh
lilmissvixen420: thats cool
Sullivan Misery: yea
lilmissvixen420: i miss that kid
Sullivan Misery: he says u are stupid
lilmissvixen420: im sure hes says a lot more than that
lilmissvixen420: wow yall have something in common
PAULA COLE~~THROWING STONES
So call me a bitch in heat and
I'll call you a liar
And we'll throw stones until we're dead
There you go again you cut me off from talking
You bask in the glory
The center of the circle
All your friends think you are a comedian
So kind and generous
but i am suffering
Away from here
I wanna be
Away from here
Away from here
Away from every little thing
Every little thing
I used to love your every little, every little thing
Now you call me a bitch in heat and
I call you a liar
And we'll throw stones until we're dead
Your arms beneath me
Your lying inside me
I used to love your every little every little thing
Your eyes blue stars
Your hand in my purse
And now I hate your every little everything all day
My inner vision, dulled and darkened
I keep myself away to you
I fuck my sorrow humblely
And throw my crown upon the ground
It's you I hope for
And us I pray for
And me that I believed was wrong
But now my anger is my best friend
Be careful may bite your head off
So call me a bitch in heat and
I'll you a motherfucker
And we'll throw stones until we're dead