my obsessive addiction
im truely addicted to my live journal. how sad. i cant stop the flow of my entries. ahh im a dork. its cuz its new to me, shut up! lol.
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.
"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."
The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.
As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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...yet another on. all these quizzes proves to me that i am soo depressing. gah, oh well, i cant hide it anymore!!
so i was thinking... and life sucks. im a pessimist. fuck the world. lol. okay im gonna talk about love. cuz i hate being in love...w/ someone who doesnt give a shit, u know? ya. i dont believe in this so-called "love" anymore. i wrote a paper on "love" in english the other day. dude it was good, and oh so true. omg i could go on and on about this shit. it pisses me off. love is fucking bullshit. its a fucking trick. it breaks u apart and stabs ur heart over and over until theres no more blood to run. (that sounded kinda poetic) my depression inspires my metaphoric writing. my loss of love ignites my depression. and all of this tears my heart to shreds... and i can feel it, it aches. my heart aches for "love". ya i know i dont believe it... but i wish it was a true thing. cuz then i could have hope once again. i was in love once, i know i was. but does it count when theres only one person that loves another, yet he doesnt love back? i dont think it does..not true love. thats fucking lust. and lust does not fullfill my appatite for love. here comes a metaphor... im like a vampyre who feeds on those who "love" me. and without a mouthful of love..i cant survive. and its true.
SOMEBODY KILL ME
You don't know how much I need you.
While you're around I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.
But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddam joke.
And when I think of you and I,
I hope you fucking choke.
I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.
Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.
I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.
~ADAM SANDLER~
Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
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i want to be loved!! im a softie for sweet talk and affection. i miss tlaking to russ, cuz he would at least give me that. and he SaiD, he "loved" me. tho he doenst act like it! oh well, i dont blame him, plus i dont deserve it anyway. ah well. alex is a super nice guy. i wish he would like me, cuz hes totally nice and caring! can u believe it?! someone actually cares. heh. i think i might be beggining to like him a bit more after our talk tonite...but it doesnt matter cuz it wont happen.
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.
"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."
The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.
As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla
...yet another on. all these quizzes proves to me that i am soo depressing. gah, oh well, i cant hide it anymore!!
so i was thinking... and life sucks. im a pessimist. fuck the world. lol. okay im gonna talk about love. cuz i hate being in love...w/ someone who doesnt give a shit, u know? ya. i dont believe in this so-called "love" anymore. i wrote a paper on "love" in english the other day. dude it was good, and oh so true. omg i could go on and on about this shit. it pisses me off. love is fucking bullshit. its a fucking trick. it breaks u apart and stabs ur heart over and over until theres no more blood to run. (that sounded kinda poetic) my depression inspires my metaphoric writing. my loss of love ignites my depression. and all of this tears my heart to shreds... and i can feel it, it aches. my heart aches for "love". ya i know i dont believe it... but i wish it was a true thing. cuz then i could have hope once again. i was in love once, i know i was. but does it count when theres only one person that loves another, yet he doesnt love back? i dont think it does..not true love. thats fucking lust. and lust does not fullfill my appatite for love. here comes a metaphor... im like a vampyre who feeds on those who "love" me. and without a mouthful of love..i cant survive. and its true.
SOMEBODY KILL ME
You don't know how much I need you.
While you're around I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.
But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddam joke.
And when I think of you and I,
I hope you fucking choke.
I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.
Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.
I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.
~ADAM SANDLER~
Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla
i want to be loved!! im a softie for sweet talk and affection. i miss tlaking to russ, cuz he would at least give me that. and he SaiD, he "loved" me. tho he doenst act like it! oh well, i dont blame him, plus i dont deserve it anyway. ah well. alex is a super nice guy. i wish he would like me, cuz hes totally nice and caring! can u believe it?! someone actually cares. heh. i think i might be beggining to like him a bit more after our talk tonite...but it doesnt matter cuz it wont happen.