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[bloodsonfire]

it's not worth it.
you want me to be perfect
i try,
i fail
at times i feel as if i must slip to survive
but you won't allow this
each mistake is letting you down
my misery brings you joy
you smile at my frowns
you laugh at my tears
it tears me apart
you aren't supposed to be this way
bringing me down each day
i can't take this shit anymore
i've had it
fuck you and you're bull
fuck you're commands i'm done
i'll never listen again
drawing caricatures with the blood
smiling faces
memories never to be erased
don't tell,hide the scars, noone can know
ever
never
secrets lies conspiracies shhh
they'll never know
i quit.