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[bloodshedlament]

[Staring at the sky. Souji sat outside the hospital on a small concrete bench his sword (slightly drawn) lay across his lap as he was looking up at the sky. His eyes slowly lowered back to his sword which he seemed to be staring at forlornly. The camera was near him, but he didn't notice it or the fact he was on. He turns back to look ahead of him

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[sing_bluesilver]

Souji? Are you okay?

[bloodshedlament]

Oh me? Yes....I'm fine. Just having trouble sleeping. Been thinking on a lot of things too.

[sing_bluesilver]

Thinking is not very good to help you get sleepy-sleep!

[bloodshedlament]

No It isn't is it?! But I can't stop them from bouncing into my head.

[sing_bluesilver]

Maybe you can talk a little? It sometimes helps me!

[bloodshedlament]

It helps me a little too...would you be willing to converse with me a little while?

[sing_bluesilver]

Sure!

...The doctor's not letting me in to see Tohma any more and I've got nothing to do now.

[bloodshedlament]

I heard he wasn't allowing visitors...I suppose he is worried about giving off the disease. I had to admit, I'm tired of this.....

[sing_bluesilver]

I don't really get that sick though.

[ Have a thin and tired looking Ryuichi plop down next to him. ]

And he forgets that I get the shots from America. They're up on that stuff.

[bloodshedlament]

Makes me wonder why Tohma-san never got those shots. He knows I feel guilty, but because of him...I've learned to stop trying to push you guys away.

[he smiles]

He just loves you Ryuichi-san.

[sing_bluesilver]

Oh, he does, but they aren't as strict with them in Japan as they are in other countries.

[ Stretching, Ryuichi looks up at the sky, chewing on Kumagoro's ear. ]

I know...

[bloodshedlament]

Ryuichi-san.....do you mind, if I ask you a question...about love?

[he said curiously looking at him almost innocently. If there was one area he was not polished in- it was that area.]

[sing_bluesilver]

Everyone keeps on asking me stuff...

[ He smiles a little, placing Kumagoro on top of his head, and turns to look at him. ]

Sure, go ahead. I may not know much about it, but it seems I know enough.

[bloodshedlament]

You know more then I do...

[he smiles and looks away semi nervous to ask about it.]

I like this person, even though he isn't here...but he is always so grumpy all the time and it's not like I don't see past it...but sometimes....

[confused about how to continue this train of thought]

I guess I'm asking how to take dominance in a situation.

[sing_bluesilver]

I probably got most of my information from the soaps.

[ He laughs at the thought of using soap operas for love advice. ]

How much does he like you? Can you tell if he really cares about you?

[bloodshedlament]

Soaps???
[picturing a bar of soap and trying to make a connection.}

You see, I'm not sure. He worries about me endlessly...and he is usually kind to me. But often times...he is also distant from me.