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I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED ABOUT THIS. EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT ME AND EVERYONE HAS TO TALK SHIT. FIRST OF ALL IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY FUCKING SAY IT TO MY FACE. DON'T FUCKING HATE ME BEHIND MY BACK. SECOND OF ALL IF YOU CANT FUCKING DO THAT THEN STOP RUNNING YOUR MOUTH ITS FUCKING HIGHSCHOOL FUCKKKKKKKKKKKING GOD.
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
and
I hate you
I hate that words can run my life
I hate that I am always back and forth
I hate how I am sick and I don't know why
I hate how I can't eat a meal without getting nauseous
I hate when things seem like they are going good but turn out horribly wrong
I hate knowing I shouldn't do something and then doing it anyways
I hate how much I miss my family
I hate how much I don't miss my family
I hate that they are about as immature as a 3 year old
I hate that all my "heros" have turned to shit
I hate that nothing is as it seems
I hate how I have I have a pessimistic outlook sometimes
I hate how I always think too much
I hate how I think
I hate it
I hate how I feel so alone
I hate how I feel in this house
I hate how Michelle hates me
I hate how mami and papi don't want me here
I hate that I feel invisible
I hate that I have fucked up so many times
I hate that I always regret what I have done
I hate that I am always broke
I hate that it took me three months to fix my car
I hate that I am getting out of shape
I hate school
I hate not going to school
I hate that there are so many people that I care about
I hate that all those people really don't like me
I hate that people can just brush things off their shoulders and forget
I hate how I can't
I hate that I care
I hate that my parents are failures in my eyes
I hate that I dread growing up because no one close to me has ever succeeded
I hate that this isn't making me feel better
I hate that I am still writing this
I hate my dad
I hate that I just said I hate my dad
I hate that my mother practically disowned me
I hate that in the pit of my fall the ones that are supposed to always be there gave up on me
I hate that my parents gave up on me
I hate that my mom gets disgusted talking to me
I hate that I am still fucking writing this
FUCK EM.
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
and
I hate you
I hate that words can run my life
I hate that I am always back and forth
I hate how I am sick and I don't know why
I hate how I can't eat a meal without getting nauseous
I hate when things seem like they are going good but turn out horribly wrong
I hate knowing I shouldn't do something and then doing it anyways
I hate how much I miss my family
I hate how much I don't miss my family
I hate that they are about as immature as a 3 year old
I hate that all my "heros" have turned to shit
I hate that nothing is as it seems
I hate how I have I have a pessimistic outlook sometimes
I hate how I always think too much
I hate how I think
I hate it
I hate how I feel so alone
I hate how I feel in this house
I hate how Michelle hates me
I hate how mami and papi don't want me here
I hate that I feel invisible
I hate that I have fucked up so many times
I hate that I always regret what I have done
I hate that I am always broke
I hate that it took me three months to fix my car
I hate that I am getting out of shape
I hate school
I hate not going to school
I hate that there are so many people that I care about
I hate that all those people really don't like me
I hate that people can just brush things off their shoulders and forget
I hate how I can't
I hate that I care
I hate that my parents are failures in my eyes
I hate that I dread growing up because no one close to me has ever succeeded
I hate that this isn't making me feel better
I hate that I am still writing this
I hate my dad
I hate that I just said I hate my dad
I hate that my mother practically disowned me
I hate that in the pit of my fall the ones that are supposed to always be there gave up on me
I hate that my parents gave up on me
I hate that my mom gets disgusted talking to me
I hate that I am still fucking writing this
FUCK EM.