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I hate feeling the way I have been for the past few days--drained, bored, impatient, stationary, unable change said position yet knowledgeably full of potential to do so. It's the oddest feeling because barely any of it is caused by my current situation with the baby coming in a month. In fact, that and the possibility of a new, well-paying job are the two things that keep me going.
On top of that, I've got these projects that I'm entirely anxious to delve into but, once again, I'm stationary in the fact that I have to work so many heinous hours, seven days a week. It's not like I'm working 80+ hours during the week but the times I'm scheduled for duty seem to ruin any plans I could make, whether they be short or long term. On top of that, I don't get days off, unless I request them, and even then I'm usually stuck with something I have to do that I don't really care for.
In that essence, I'm at a horrible loss of time, energy, and my once-prided perseverance in anything and everything I put my hands toward. This tidbit, I think, hurts the worst of all.
We'll see how things go, I presume.
On top of that, I've got these projects that I'm entirely anxious to delve into but, once again, I'm stationary in the fact that I have to work so many heinous hours, seven days a week. It's not like I'm working 80+ hours during the week but the times I'm scheduled for duty seem to ruin any plans I could make, whether they be short or long term. On top of that, I don't get days off, unless I request them, and even then I'm usually stuck with something I have to do that I don't really care for.
In that essence, I'm at a horrible loss of time, energy, and my once-prided perseverance in anything and everything I put my hands toward. This tidbit, I think, hurts the worst of all.
We'll see how things go, I presume.