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I'm so happy to be going home tomorrow.
I don't know how I feel about college. at this point, I guess I don't hate it. I just feel like I'm not as happy as I should be... and I've given it time, I should be steadily getting happier. I just feel like I've been at this stagnant point for like two weeks. like, I'm not getting happier, just getting used to being here.
on the other hand, I'm afraid to go home. I don't want it to be weird like most people say it is. I want it to feel like home. if I didn't even feel at home at home, I don't even know what I'd think. but I'm also scared that I'm going to get there and not want to come back here. which is likely. thank god Columbus day is in two weeks. oh, and we're going to a renaissance faire. that should be fun, especially for weirdos like me. I'm dressing up as Anne Boleyn. obviously. so that should be fun. =)
I am TERRIBLE at losing weight. seriously, I don't know what it is, but food is so addictive to me. I ate too much today and I don't feel good about it at all. I need to remind myself every time I go to stuff my face that I will feel bad afterward, that I will not lose any weight if I keep it up. it shouldn't be hard to lose like 15 pounds, so I don't know why I have to make things so difficult for myself.
I want to take a dance class. swing dancing would be awesome. I should take a class of some sort. I wish I joined a club.
I don't know how I feel about college. at this point, I guess I don't hate it. I just feel like I'm not as happy as I should be... and I've given it time, I should be steadily getting happier. I just feel like I've been at this stagnant point for like two weeks. like, I'm not getting happier, just getting used to being here.
on the other hand, I'm afraid to go home. I don't want it to be weird like most people say it is. I want it to feel like home. if I didn't even feel at home at home, I don't even know what I'd think. but I'm also scared that I'm going to get there and not want to come back here. which is likely. thank god Columbus day is in two weeks. oh, and we're going to a renaissance faire. that should be fun, especially for weirdos like me. I'm dressing up as Anne Boleyn. obviously. so that should be fun. =)
I am TERRIBLE at losing weight. seriously, I don't know what it is, but food is so addictive to me. I ate too much today and I don't feel good about it at all. I need to remind myself every time I go to stuff my face that I will feel bad afterward, that I will not lose any weight if I keep it up. it shouldn't be hard to lose like 15 pounds, so I don't know why I have to make things so difficult for myself.
I want to take a dance class. swing dancing would be awesome. I should take a class of some sort. I wish I joined a club.