Yaah, im not dead.

[bloodroseangel]

Yup. an update.
i dont have internet access anymore. i get to check my email, and update about ever 2 or 3 weeks.

soo... thats why nobuddys really heard anything from me.

life now... most of it is spent chasing after between one and five kids, which i dont get paid to do.

cannot eat around the kids, because you will get mugged. cannot smoke around the kids, because thats just cruel, cannot play any music around the kids, because they will want to "help you play your instruments".

Its driving me crazy. davids sister, and her boyfriend, are also driving me crazy. they dont really spend any time with their children, they dont wake up with them in the morning, they hit eachother and fight in front of the kids, and living there is like eternally pouring bleach into my eyes and mouth.

ihateitihateitihateit.

but, since were all so freaking broke, nothing can be done about it yet. im pretty sure were not going to be able to get that house...
so..i dont know.
but im considering just waiting it out ofr awhile...
if nothing happens or imporves by the end of april, im going back to rochester.
yeah, i would give anything for david, but now im really losing my mind. and i cant go through that all over again.

thats all for now.

enjoy.