i wish you tried half as hard as i did

[bloodroseangel]

hopefully ill be visiting rochester for a week on friday.
get to spend time with mom and my dad. hopefully chris and josh too.

i need to spend sometime away from this place.
its fun sometimes...but often things here remind me of why i left rochester.
my reasons for staying here i fear are starting to wither.
not that i really have anywhere else to go...

but im not sure that im happy.
thats probably not good. usually im 100% sure of wether or not im content.

i dont know.
things have changed.
i dont feel how i think i should feel.

which is why i need to go to rochester for a little while.
get away from everything so that i can clear my head a little bit.

david needs to tell me whatever the fuck hes been keeping from me all day.
i just got real worried all of a sudden.
kind of feels like im going to passsss out.

guess that means my update is finished.