Today and how I felt
Today was odd... First off the girl that I am inlove with wasnt at school today cause she was sick... Which gave me alot of free time between classes and thats time I dont want if you know what I mean... I miss her and I have been thinking alot and when I think to much I get a head ache and it sucks cause I cant stop thinking... But I accually dont mind thinking about her and how I feel... I have been thinkin about what to say to her to help her see what I say is true... I love her and she cant see that it is true... She thinks I am addicted and I know I am not... She has made me become a better person... I have good attendance I havent skipped a class all quarter and thats not like me... So you see why she has made me a better person... Also I am getting my grades up cause she wants me to... I dont know but I like it... Second I have been listening to music and every song I hear I can fit into how I feel about the girl I love because every song I hear seems to be a love song... But yeah... I miss her and I havent talked to her since Friday and that scares me cause for some reason I think I did something wrong so I am depressed and have thoughts of going back to what I used to do... The people that know me will know what that means... But for those who dont it means that I have been having thoughts about cutting my self... Which I am not doing yet but has been a thought... Cause if I messed up with her before I even get my shot it would be to much to bear I would start cutting again... And I dont want that and I love her to much... Well I better go so I will talk later