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I had a migraine today, well yesterday which sucks and I'm hoping is because of my period (though it'd be preemptive and that's odd) and that I don't get any more. I haven't had one for what feels like a while, though I'm gonna say...two/three weeks??? Maaaaaybe a month??? I do really think that for a full blown migraine it's actually pushing more towards the month mark. It just blows because I didn't get to see Hunter and it would've been nice because I have the dreaded Praxis Saturday and it would've still been a lil' bit of studying time, but in a different place. aaaaa...it's just very stressful, because I really don't want to get a letter saying "fail" and that is a possibility. Like FERREAL. At the top it'll say pass or fail and that just makes it so much worse because yes, I can admit it, I have a complex about not wanting to fail at anything. Now, that doesn't mean that I don't fail at things, ohhhh no trust me I do. Yes I may have some legitimate reasons (and I honestly may not have, at least back in the day-ie the beginning of college), but I still don't want to give myself any personal leeway. I mean, no one else does or will so there's no point in myself doing so (ex. oh that's such a good grade considering that you have issues multi-tasking and have lots of projects and haven't been in school for a semester. yeah...that doesn't help my gpa They don't care that I was hit by a car and have dyslexia, though at least I've learned to cope with the latter thankfully).
The migraine thing, plus I was feeling what I would describe as "fibromialgia-y" earlier this week and last week-achey and tired and headachey and just...drained. I was just dragging and just could not move and felt like crap and my head was achey. And of course in general my head has gone back to being kind of achey. It's just at about a 2, but it's still worrisome and it's still something I should just not have to deal with plain and simple. And of course it's probably this huge cycle of me getting a headache, stressing about it, and then the stress causing a headache.
The migraine thing, plus I was feeling what I would describe as "fibromialgia-y" earlier this week and last week-achey and tired and headachey and just...drained. I was just dragging and just could not move and felt like crap and my head was achey. And of course in general my head has gone back to being kind of achey. It's just at about a 2, but it's still worrisome and it's still something I should just not have to deal with plain and simple. And of course it's probably this huge cycle of me getting a headache, stressing about it, and then the stress causing a headache.